Poetry

What really hurts

do you know what really hurts
when you talk to someone for days
and have the best conversation with them
even small talks
talking to them made my whole day
then one day
they act like you never exist
and you left there trying to figure out
what you did wrong
then you doubt yourself
EVERY fucking time

Sunflower 🌻

Adore you

Adore you

Miss your face don’t know if
I can say I love you but I’ll say
I adore you crave your touch
Miss your kisses wanna rub
Your naked body give them
Soft lips slow kisses got you
On my mind fuck you like I’m
Madly in love vibe so pure got
You craving everything about
Me know you love it here won’t
Play in your face like finger paint
Just want you to drown me with
That wet pussy got me so invested
In your energy transferring all my
Energy into you pouring so much pure energy into you got no choice but to fall in love Sorry that the effect of messing with me love so hard probably will love you more than you love yourself don’t care about your flaws we’ll grow I’ll show you the functions of my heart show you what real love feels like this that grandparents love I’m showing you ain’t see no man love my momma but my grandfather loved my nana to pieces my uncle & his wife been together for my whole life span know love is real look me in my eyes my mothers love kept me alive on that operation table was only a baby when I was dying only thing keeping me alive is my mothers love and God choosing me to show he’s real can’t mess this opportunity up ain’t get this chance for nothing just adoring my time with you my darling hope you know I’m deep & I think outside the box trying escape the matrix hope you come with me and see life from the outside evolving into a different person tearing the old layer of myself off creating something brand new hope you adore me cause I adore you if not it’s cool understand everything comes to a end
nothing is promised
not even life just adore
The moments that
made you smile feels good
To say I’ve been sawing nothing
But pure intentions showing my raw
Self to you being vulnerable opening up a different man come walk with me to a different realm opening my third eye can see the destination & it’s beautiful I’m off the grind now just enjoy your company I adore you my darling.

Forever Yours
- برينتون نيكولاس

Brenton Nicholas

Me vs. Life...

Sometimes I just want to shoot life down.
Then I remember that every time I have tried,
Life has shot me instead.
So, I stare at my bedroom ceiling,
Waiting for the day when life runs out of ammo.
So that I can finally take my shot,
Without being left broken and bleeding.

Nadine «3

When Everyone And No One’s Watching

When you look in my eyes and tell me I’m beautiful.
Will you do the same in front of your friends at all costs?

Will I still be the one you want when the world is watching?
Will you still hold me when your ex’s parents walk in?

Tell me I’m in all your dreams,
Tell me I’m the reason you breathe.

Will you do it in front of everyone and when there’s no one?

I think about it too often.
But will I be the one when everyone and no one is watching?

Will I still be your prize when I’m close to fifty nine?
Will you tell your friends that I’m your life?

Will I be enough for you, with the blinds closed and in front of judging eyes?
In front of strangers, will you say that you never need to see the northern lights because you are holding the sight?

Will I be enough for you when everyone and no one is watching?

When your hurt, will you call on my name on the edge of time?
Will you do the same when your family stay the night?

Will I be enough for you when everyone and no one is watching?

SzS 12

Love capsule

Love capsule

love in a pill capsule
Swallowing my fear no more pain
can’t believe Cupid
Shot the wrong bitch
Love capsule got me so damn high might needed catch up
With me off this earth
Heart so divine Love capsule
All in my body kissing so slow
Gripping your hips come closer
Don’t be scared tease you for awhile don’t wanna rush waiting for this Love capsule to kick in got my face deep in your lagoon asked me what it taste like
Taste like my new bitch cause I don’t eat pussy unless you my bitch Love capsule got me slutting you out for hours Love capsule to blame too many soul ties is you in love with me or is you loving the demon that comes out of me when I’m off this capsule releasing demons tonight
Screaming all night speaking in tongues Love capsule got you under my spell now you won’t be disappointed came here for rounds Love capsule all in my body
Diving deep in your lagoon flood the
Sheets don’t hold back putting everything in you pull your hair
Smack that ass spitting all your juices Back in your mouth don’t kiss no ass but I’ll lick that booty hole camera on be my little porn star my little thunder clap pounding all night wanna stretch that pussy wanna
Make that pussy stretch got you
Climaxing all night Love capsule got me Everlasting punching that bottom
Eyes rolling in the back of your head
Gripping your throat watch me beat your little pussy tell me how it feels what’s my name don’t tell me that pussy mine just renting for tonight you may call me on another late night wont take you on dates only date we going on is in my bed room Netflix keep asking is we watching
Haven’t paid any attention
Since her ass got in the bed
Tied her hair up dick rock hard
got her nails
Deep in my back drawing hearts in
My back diving deeper so damn deep can feel her kidneys shake that ass while I’m behind you whip that pussy no pussy whipping me Love capsule got me in my zone fucking her like I love her forever , forever is never so I’m going all out tonight won’t mislead you baby tell you nothing but the truth I’m here to
Fuck the shit out of you off this
Love capsule make your body
Leave this realm got you open
Heart all involved tell all your friends
How your body left this earth tell them about the thrill I gave you last night round after round non stop pounding pussy rain forest wet
Swimming all night Love capsule
To blame

Yours truly
- برينتون نيكولاس

Brenton Nicholas

LOVE

Love is a rose with thorns attached
It can bring joy, but also fast
Pains that invade us in a blink
Making us question all we think

In love, we find a guiding light
A sacred bond that’s warm and bright
We revel in its heady thralls
As passion rages, love now calls

Yet, love can bring us to our knees
A hurricane we cannot seize
When trust is shattered, hearts will bleed
And tears we cry, impossible to heed

So take the joys that love provides
Embrace the pleasure, feel its highs
But don’t forget it comes with strife
The pains of love, the price of life

For in the end, love is our guide
The compass that we use to abide
But it’s up to us to cherish it right
To keep the flame alive..

Lil D-Kay

Lemonade

(Credits to Internet Money, Gunna, Don Toliver & NAV
DISCLAIMER: LANGUAGE, EXPLICIT CONTENT AND THIS IS NOT MY SONG. I DO NOT OWN ANY RIGHTS TO THIS SONG!)
Xanny bars, suicide door, brand new bag (ooh-ooh)
College girls give a nigga head in my Rafs (ooh-ooh)
Rockstar life, so much money, it’ll make you laugh, hey
These bitches, they hate, and you can’t miss what you never had, hey, hey
Off the juice (juice), codeine got me trippin’ (juice)
Copped a coupe (coupe), woke up, roof is missin’, yeah
Ice (ice), lemonade, my neck was drippin’
Ice (ice), lemonade, my neck was drippin’
Why? (Yеah-yeah-yeah) Why?
Why you wanna waste my timе?
I can tell you really hate your life
Bitch, your watch the same as mine
(Oh, oh, yeah) I can’t relate
Designer frames, I’m blind today
(Oh-oh) I’m never late
The money callin’, you needed space
Xanny bars, suicide door, brand new bag (ooh-ooh)
College girls give a nigga head in my Rafs (ooh-ooh)
Rockstar life, so much money, it’ll make you laugh, hey
These bitches, they hate, and you can’t miss what you never had, hey, hey
Off the juice (juice), codeine got me trippin’ (juice)
Copped a coupe (coupe), woke up, roof is missin’, yeah
Ice (ice), lemonade, my neck was drippin’
Ice (ice), lemonade, my neck was drippin’
Yeah, this codeine got me trippin’ (codeine got me trippin’)
Wish it was over, I’ve been rollin’ for a minute
I got the broad, she want the ménage inside the pla-a-ace
’68 Charger, duckin’ the laws, I might do the ra-a-aid, huh
I like to ride in my new bag and I got a new bitch in my lap
Counting up the blue strips with two straps, yeah, yeah
Huh, slide in the Lambo’, I slide in the Porsches
Huh, check my garage, I got too many choices
Walk around, got a couple mill’s stuffed in my bag
Stripper hoes all in my Rolls shakin’ they ass
Huh, we just ran a tab up at Nobu
You said that you never got high, I’ma show you
Xanny bars, suicide door, brand new bag
College girls give a nigga head in my Rafs (ooh-ooh)
Rockstar life, so much money, it’ll make you laugh, hey
These bitches, they hate, and you can’t miss what you never had, hey, hey
Off the juice (juice), codeine got me tripping (juice)
Copped a coupe (coupe), woke up, roof is missin’ (yeah)
Ice (ice), lemonade, my neck was drippin’
Ice (ice), lemonade, my neck was drippin’
Hey, yeah-yeah

𝕻𝖍𝖔𝖊𝖓𝖎𝖝 𝕵𝖔𝖗𝖉𝖎𝖘𝖔𝖓

HUNT

Drip, drip the red blood,
Touching white floor,
No pain no gain,
I will break the law,

Aim for living life,
Never show you my flaw,
See you off my friend,
When I came to you tomorrow.

que random

Separate

Separate

Heard rumors from people I love the most crazy had to separate myself from people i would kill for heart so cold from giving the wrong people my loyalty forever my brother keeper even know niggas showed me true colors forever walking ina rain long talks with my little bro bout that money forever having still got plenty money in my kitty sorry momma for stealing your perks had to make something shake was tired of not having shit heard niggas talking crazy on my name smiling in my face like everything gravy bitch how this 40 taste empty clips all on ya dome separated myself from the fake created my own lane ain’t nun like these other niggas ima real nigga through it all seen niggas turn bitch when em cuffs got put on em crazy my dawg own blood told on em separated myself for a reason these niggas ain’t real as they claim to be so separation was a must free my dawgs out em cells backwoods filled wit hazes smoking till our eyes blood shot red pain in this blunt separate myself just tryna betta myself chasing bread no cheese no rat feel like frank Matthews might disappear money good looking outta town feeling golden with the word play all in her mouth like toothpaste putting white all in her mouth like Colgate name in my phone no gag put the whole dick in your mouth baby make it disappear let’s get toxic fuck you like I love you she throwing pussy at me but don’t even want it got bitches black Austin powers is we shagging now or later bring your friend with da ass two perks in me for stamina ain’t tryna bust all fast baby put that throat on me before I leave another one lick the balls bitches crazy all I did was keep it real know I broke a couple hearts don’t give a fuck we ain’t married baby a girlfriend won’t stop me from finding my wife had too separate myself from shorty too many red flags ain’t changing into something you want when another bitch gonna love me for me just a poet tryna survive this wicked world shouldn’t be alive right now I’m thankful found my purpose enjoying each day showing you my mind painting in your head tell me see walking ina rain do you see the pain in my eyes tell me do you really feel me don’t lie too me keep it real separated from everything
ain’t lose rhythm just separated myself from everything to get here fuck love but i want real love .

- برينتون نيكولاسي

Brenton Nicholas

Candles Can’t Burn Forever

His skin started melting like wax.

Slowly dripping onto the floorboards,

Pooling in little puddles at their feet.

Her eyes burned with a flame,

Untamable by any force other than his gentle breath.

Her blistering pupils staring into his cool eyes.

His skin burned, a pain which would not be expressed by oral noises.

He yearned to tell her to stop, but he couldn’t manage any sound.

So he sat and melted away, slowly being devoured in flame.

She new nothing of his endurance, to her, he seemed perfectly cheerful.

So her burning eyes and his melting skin continued their eternal grapple.

Their fuse was running short, soon to be snuffed out.

His waxy skin dripped down her fingers, trickling down his arms, legs, building up layers on the wooded floors.

Her heat continually burning his melted skin, burning through the floor.

Her obliviousness slowly melting, just slower than his skin, his hair, his eyes melting away.

She noticed his pain only once she noticed his face’s contortions being exaggerated ever so much more,

His pain became visible to her, only once it was to late for their love; to late for his live; to late for her pain to overwhelm her; to late for him to be saved.

As he met his smoldering end, he stared into her burning eyes slowly turning icy cold.

He watched as she became cold, as he became hotter than he could handle.

His skin dripping, him melting, drooping, bending, folding in ways that a body should not.

She watched him contort, twist, warp, in positions that looked painful to her flickering shape.

To a being with no mass his distortions looked agonizing.

She felt herself become cold; she felt her mind numbing; her body solidifying.

They watched each other change, him dying, her being reborn.

Both in pain equally physically and mentally.

His eyes slowly faded, soon after burning away. Her skin frosted over, becoming colder than ice.

As she stood up and trudged through the pool of wax that was him, she thought of her misdoings; her mistakes; her accidents.

She cried, on that one fateful night in the city.

She knelt down and cried, her eyes burning as she did so.

The pain she felt from the water touching her cold skin, freezing upon contact, was a pain which would not be expressed by oral noises.

So now she stands, still in the cold.

Waiting to again be lit, to burn once more.

In the dark of an alleyway, deep in the bowels of the dumpster, She and her love sat.

Waiting to be reunited in life, to be brought back together.

Just to do it all again. An endless cycle of pain, grief, and love.

But then again, isn’t that just what love is?

Pain, beauty, and grief?

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11:59 pm July 7th 2023

Kyler (nickname)Kai

Stranger, teacher, lifeline

When I first saw you I wasn’t so sure
Who is this man?
Will he replace Miss L?
I thought you were gross and weird
I was unsure of you
But then I asked you the question
I tried to get Miss but you answered first instead
The answer: yes
The topic: Sherlock
Your answer: you like it
Just like me, loving Andrew Scott
And I knew you were going to be awesome

The first time I found your help
I wanted Miss, not you
But it wasn’t so bad
In fact, you gave me confidence and a personal pride
So I knew you were going to be awesome

Later on, not much farther
Bullies and haters came to haunt me
To hunt me, to hurt me
But I knew where to go
I came to you
I came to safety
I came to advice
You got me through and helped me grow
Told me not to fight back and flare up
And it worked
They left
So I thank you for that

As the year passed, I grew even more
I grew shyer, stronger, lonelier
I had rough patches
Full of self-hate, pain and sadness
But I knew where to come
I knew who would help
I came to you

You saved my life
Saved my soul
Brought back my emotions
Brought back desire to live
Brought back my hope
No suicidal thoughts now
Just you and your advice spinning in my head
Telling me it will be ok
Telling me life’s beautiful
Telling me things will get better

A couple months later
And many talks later
I finally felt alive
No more fresh cuts and no more hard stares
I think I have emotions now
Small infrequent insignificant emotions, but emotion nonetheless
I don’t know if it feels nice or gross
But I’ll follow your advice and say that they’re normal

You gave me a whole new perspective on life
Maybe I can change my future
I don’t have to end it
I am not a heartless person
There are a rare few people who actually don’t hate me
You were not wrong when you said I’d feel different - I do
And you are the reason I’m here today

And then I found guitar, found music
Escape from reality and my key to speciality
Found out you liked it too
Came for advice to you
You taught me alot to know
And supported too

I guess you’ve become like a surrogate father to me
Like Miss is like a surrogate aunt to me
You both are like family
Both are like friends
I apologize if I push the boundaries and annoy you sometimes
I just have a very stubborn personality
And a strange desire for company
If I have a lonely or sad day, there’s a high chance I’ll come to you
Just to chat or get advice
To just talk it out or share my news
To feel less alone
But thank you for somehow putting up with me so far

As you probably know, I am really shit at emotions
So I try to express gratitude through tiny stuff such as
Gifts, compliments and chats
But I apologise if they’re getting annoying

We have so much in common and I don’t think I can ever let you go
Dread the day I’ll have to say goodbye
But it’s inevitable
So for now all I have to say is thank you
Thank you for everything
Thank you for being like a lifeline
A person I go to if I’m ever on the brink of breaking
See you another day
Another day that, without your advice and encouragement, I never would have made.

Indie P-S

I Don’t Know Why, I Even Try

Soft-spoken
Not profane
Another argument I must refrain,

From sharing my thoughts
Calling the shots
Hoping my stance comes clear
And that my respect isn’t seen as mere

Once I step up,
To the conversation
I can already feel the agitation

”I disagree with this”
”I disagree with that”
Could you even hear each other’s perspective?
We’re getting off track!

Combative is the spirit
Being heard is the goal
If you refuse to listen, the purpose is gone as a whole

So I ask you
The one with malice in their eyes,
Why did I even try?

AN AN