London

We been beefing all week but that’s my bitch through it all she going ride when everything fall apart fuck that bullshit baby get over it we still together we not breaking up let’s figure it out together know we better together than apart know you need me like I need you my soul tied to yours wrap it in a gift bag for you love me some you baby can’t stop loving you don’t nobody love you like me couldn’t let you go even if I wanted to she’ll be hiding in my bushes probably beat my next bitch up love this bitch like a fat kid loves cake she call me big smoochy when I’m beating that Lor pink pussy burgundy hands tied up don’t play with cuffs baby let’s go rounds ain’t fuck a bitch like I’m fucking you giving you straight pressure bust that pussy wide open got her heart in it now she keep telling me she loves me while I’m inside telling me cum in me baby let’s create a little us start a family together know I’m with whatever you on bay love you forever don’t need no ring put your name on my finger I’m forever faithful why cheat when we can slut the bitch out together we get so nasty when it threesome times perks be having me out my body know I been through something held me down through the storm reason you get everything I’ll never stop loving you I fall in love with you every day & it’s one of the most amazing feelings I’ve ever felted in my life I love you
Baby your my forever & forever love me some you baby can’t let you go I’m so in love with you can’t get enough of your loving baby you give me chills every kiss feels like the first time baby know I’m madly in love writing telling the world I love you baby tattoo your name on me to let them know it’s real I’m never leaving you baby love you too the moon give you my heart & soul baby i love you with everything breath in my body baby I’m for you.

Yours truly

برينتون نيكولاسي

The fragrance of my childhood
Hides in the folds of your embrace.
You were warm, like the sun’s rays,
Whenever I needed you, you were there.
I thought our relationship would always stay that way.

I loved you so much, and I expected you to do the same,
But with time, our relationship got tainted,
And our love for each other slowly faded.
With passing years, the distance grew between us.

It’s not like I don’t love you anymore,
I still do as much as before,
And I know you love me too,
But it does not feel the same anymore.

You are here, but when I look for you,
I just cannot find you anywhere.
Even though the world left me behind,
I hoped you would be with me through time.

In the fragments of my childhood,
All the love you gave me, I still remember,
But all the times you looked at me with contempt, I still remember.
My love for you is still there,
Your love for me is still here.

But our relationship is not like before,
Even though we are so close by,
It feels like we are countries apart.
I can’t feel your warmth anymore,
All the good memories of you are here,
You too are here, but it’s not like before.

In the fragments of my childhood,
All the love you gave me, I still remember,
In those fragments, I remember how
You used to smile and look at me with love.
In your embrace, I felt all the warmth.
You were there for me whenever I cried,
And when I needed you, you appeared right before my eyes.

But now that I am older, things have changed.
As I look at you, I don’t feel the same,
You’re still as before, but we are not anymore.
People say, with time, relationships change, and I guess that’s true.
What we have now is hard to believe, describe.

In the fragments of my childhood,
All the love you gave me, I still remember,
How you looked at me lovingly, I still reminisce and smile.
But I still remember how you gazed at me as if I were something filthy.

In those fragments of my childhood,
I still remember that young child who used to be happy.
And loved their mother dearly; they still do,
But it’s not the same anymore.
It’s all just confined to those fragments,
And those fragments are slowly fading away,
Like those dreams that fade over time.

In the fragments of my childhood,
All the love you gave me, I still remember,
All the times you smiled at me lovingly, I still remember.
But just like a dream, it doesn’t feel real anymore.

William Reed sits on his leather recliner a top his two story penthouse an accomplished assassin indeed but healthy as he sips on fresh grounded coffee beans straight from his garden not taking a liking to brandy as a killer he must have something wrong with him right? Yes you’d be right while sipping on his black coffee he takes generous bites of his favorite white chocolate King Cream *Sips ahhh* m-Master a young woman crawls from inside his bedroom she has quite the figure looks to be in her mid twenties brunette there seems to be bruises on her skin she’s wearing a blindfold and there a gag hanging just below her mouth. I think there’s something wrong with my sister after her comes a sickly looking blonde woman mid twenties but this time her skin is riddled with sores and open wounds without saying a word the blonde crawls over using every ounce of her strength to pull herself on to her masters lap one last time he pets her in her final moments until she passes away all too soon and her warm blood starts to turn cold don’t worry he mutters The wretched bastard who did this too you will burn in hell you won’t be alone.

For me, you are my entire world,
But to you, I’m just a lost star in the dark sky.

For me, you are my shining light,
the only thing I see in the darkest times,
But to you, I’m merely a fading,
colourless rainbow after the rain.

For me, you are and
will always be the only one in my small world,
But to you, I am just
one of those extras in your huge world.

For me, you’re my everything,
Yet to you, I probably mean nothing.

I’ll confess to you that my love
Is pure I’ll be honest with you
can’t see why you being
All stiff like I’m not worthy or
Something maybe you should
See the bigger picture before it’s
Too late already started dating the
Woman I want the most don’t see me but I see her she’s everything to me see your value girl left all my bags at the door opening the door leaving all my past traumas behind me couple failed relationships taught me to control my mind don’t spill to much only vent to momma know she won’t use my words against me saw potential in me when I was dying in front her eyes happy to say I’m finally living different got my goals together &
Checked off the boxes behind tints
Can’t see me don’t want to be noticed hustling to disappear not to be seen invest in a brand with my brother can’t trust these other niggas can’t see why these bitches
Want to gold dig me cheap playing broke won’t buy you nothing teach you game through can’t put nothing pass you see through you like a lens
My vision clear see what’s really real life made me run under a rock had to move out that rock had to repair my mind had to learn them Niggas ain’t my friends couple of my day ones bitch made still love can’t be around me if you ain’t loyal see through everybody ain’t no getting over on me no words unless it’s from the chamber my heart bleed black ink I’m evil trying cleanse my soul hopefully you see me cause I see you know they creating false narratives about me say whatever don’t care less if I can’t learn from you don’t want to be around you not into
gossip what’s the facts niggas worried about the wrong shit I’m just trying tuck all my money away baking power in a Sandwich bag in the floor board been saving since I moved shorty still think I was fucking off on her confused her mind when I said I didn’t fell in love with my other life I’m really head first littlest soldier don’t get your head gone lied about a situation real reason shit went left crazy I become everything I lied to shorty about one step at a time ruining my life could’ve been something by now slow grinding puffing till my lungs hurt eyes low
Voice all low they keep saying huh my fault I’m in my mode doctor want to put me on crazy pills cause my bipolar mind happy to know about my mental state some call me crazy for thinking too much they say I’m killing my own happiness with negative thoughts did you know they get washed away with pure positivity showed your hand poker face on see how you were playing , played along to see if you were honest with me couple women tucked away for the autumn season never single long but this time I’m remaining alone
phone dry still deleting numbers
No messages in phone just thoughts
Don’t mind sharing with you don’t make me regret being vulnerable with you somebody told me learn to let go love is my biggest down fall keep loving all the wrong women keep your head on your shoulders stay alone know you love yourself it’s just something about being alone got me attracting myself to anybody not setting up boundaries not learning who I’m dealing with only showing my silly side haven’t been serious yet cause she probably not going last to see that side of me rather cut my tongue out before I kiss somebody ass not begging nor staying anywhere I’m not wanted
Wasted so much time on wasted love seeking for love when love slowly seeking me just
gotta remain focus on the
prize no stress no drama no more social media no more distractions less talking more actions so distasteful of me to go back on my words not going to do that fool of me for not sharing my real feelings had people walking over me lying to like it was fun game or something never believe in they lies any fucking way
Smile with many but don’t trust any
Same way they smile in your face be the same way they laugh behind your back all them I love you don’t be real you feel it in your soul when someone isn’t right gotta stop
Annoying it always trying see the good in people when they show they intentions are bad only going to bite you in the ass you keep going through the sane cycle in life cause you not learning same mistakes expecting different results is insanity
Go check in the mental asylum
See your future behind bars if you don’t change your fucking life I’m begging you open your fucking eyes before they close forever soul in another body having weird flashbacks of your past life
If you die right now what the fuck would your impact be will they miss you celebrate your name will your name live forever or will you fade away just another distant memory
On somebody’s social media clip know they only truly love when your heart stops only people who will love you unconditionally is your kid & parents never had no kids only know one of parents careless about my father happy to say thank you for giving me a piece of your liver you still a piece of shit worthless I’m not you use to believe that I would turn into you mother told me her biggest fear is one of kids being strung out on drugs it hit different cause I was high of perks when said this to me
One of my friends overdosed got me glad I stop popping been clean off pills since 2016 same time my friend caught all that time like he going be able to see hundred years told me please find your purpose don’t be trapped by this system they waiting for us & jail turn Niggas to monsters
A lot of niggas don’t come back the same traumatized from the shit I been exposed to at a early age
reason we don’t think the same
The cross always come close never from afar enemies be your friends & family even the person you call lover may even hurt you cause they confused on if they want you never get entangled with someone who’s still in love with they past & shit
Stop dating cause her body is banging if her mind isn’t complexed
Stay away from her if she’s easy to get a conversation out of talking about we fake blah blah blah love a female who hate everybody & just want to get the money she live for herself she’s not trying please the world she love herself she wants real life vibes not social media couple goals the vibes I’m searching for is something peaceful someone who’s home to me my escape from the world my happiness not my full source can bring my own happiness & love don’t mind alone time dark room looking into the darkness syncing my mind to the other side
Trying to open my third eye unlock the door to my heart & flooded you in my full love no reason to give half thoughts one percent of me being dished out hope you can handle it I’m a plate full anxiety and depression once ruled my mind
Repairing the broken part of my mind hasn’t been easy can’t keep letting people in they keep hurting me with lies too many betrayal I’m trying my hardest not to switch into a person I don’t I don’t recognize pass the smoke I’m kind hearted loving down to earth deeper than the surface shows I’m to myself for a reason
Honestly haven’t met anybody who mentally connects with me on a deeper level I’m seeking more wisdom wanting to be more understanding taking responsibility for all my actions for all my fuck ups can’t right my wrongs but can right my life may not hear from me for awhile leaving wasn’t easy left no choice honestly no reason to stay when I already seen myself leaving you all behind switch my whole life in a flash don’t know nobody no more genuinely happy with my decision
Only if you know how many nights I thought of this dreamed of it manifesting in the dark searching for light in my life till I realized I’m the light you know I just had myself off for too long them days are over wrote this to reflect on some of the things I need to let go of reading all my old letters to myself sorry if you got caught in the tornado the storm is over & I finally gripped life by the horns the mental war is over the mind Is finally free no more darkness
The transition to being happy has been easy no bad vibes no negative energy just pure positively pure intentions chasing what makes me happy I want everybody to be at peace with themselves love themselves forgive themselves we all fall but it’s up to you how long you stay down .

Turned towards the knife,
The precipice promised relief
From the cut of a thousand fractures,
And I thought how easy it would be—
One step to end the pain.

Medusa was just like an ordinary girl
Prettier than a dime
More dangerous than a crime.
Al prize thieves can’t keep their eyes off.
Well I’m not Medusa, and you aren’t Poseidon.
You have no right to my body and my body is not your reward.
You have no right to my torso or to my hair.
You should barely have any rights when you’re being unfair.
Well, Medusa had snakes for hair.
WELL I CAN’T HAVE SNAKES FOR HAIR
I can’t turn you into stone because your hands just want to roam
We are victims not survivors and for some reason you still act like
you’re higher than us when all you are is a lousy sack of dust.
You held us down with our feet and hands on the ground and fought through our screams and yet one of us got a gift. The other had a wish but it wasn’t no ordinary wish, it was a wish to be dead and call it the end.
To end her trauma
To end her life
End the suffering she smiled through when you were finished with her.
Breaking her back and pinning her down, letting your lips move around while she fought.
She fought for her freedom.
she fought for her safety and you took away her innocence and something the can’t have back.
You dirty snake
thinking you can slither around her body and caress every inch because you can’t stand to see how her waist and hips are snatched like a stressball when you squeeze tighter than ever, or how her lips looked on her and her eyes just glowed.
Or the smile she had when she saw a rose.
You thief.

You are just like a dream, so vivid yet surreal,
Even as I chase after you, like a child chasing a butterfly, you’d disappear,
You’ll fly to the sky, too high, out of my reach,
And I wake up in a reality where you do not exist.

The memories of those dreams fade as I open my eyes,
Though I don’t remember your face anymore, dear,
Your oceanic eyes, your radiant smile, I still remember vividly in my mind,
The sound of your laughter still echoes in my ears.

My heart still holds the pain near,
I recall your voice and your face, strained with tears,
Cascading like rain from the sky, like snow on a winter’s night.
A faint smile, a pained look on your face, that you used to hide.

I still remember everything, though you’re no longer near,
As if it were just yesterday when you were here,
Everything reminds me of you, I fear,
My heart aches at the mere thought of you, dear.

Like sunrays, your memories linger,
And reach even the darkest corners of my heart.
They won’t leave me alone, find their way,
Haunt me until I go insane.

Sometimes I just want to shoot life down.
Then I remember that every time I have tried,
Life has shot me instead.
So, I stare at my bedroom ceiling,
Waiting for the day when life runs out of ammo.
So that I can finally take my shot,
Without being left broken and bleeding.

”Step up in front of the class!”
”Describe yourself with one word”
”No inappropriate choices or phrases, don’t make it absurd!”

I curse myself seeing she picks me first
My classmates were now immersed, in my next move
I disapprove, of the laughing I hear from the back of the room
With my hands shaking, I utter ”Failure”

The teacher glances
But I’ve been on my best behavior

The laughing grows louder
The teacher scolds, how her, choice
Of words created a riot
And made the kids anything but quiet

”No, let me explain!”
”Please sit down, we don’t have all day.”
The cycle of failure continues to replay

Zy letter

Your love was so good for me had to let you go because my heart was too ruined to love didn’t want to break your heart know you were mad when I moved on, but you already had
Niggas on your line lost all my trust for you had to go separate ways even know you were good for my mental your mindset beyond this
Atmosphere, don’t let anybody treat you like
An option cause you the one who’ll make a man heart sing. I got memories with you that I won’t let go remember your short cut in slow motion round after round, tv blasting
Because you would be so loud ain’t want to get caught up ain’t know you had that ocean almost came twice had readjusted my stoke
So many times know you still love me see you watching my stories wonder if we could fuck one more time give your soul what it been needing legs shaking pussy spraying like ah sprinkler spite in your mouth choking you till your face turn red back shots hanging off the bed beat that little tight
Pink pussy till it’s Burgundy know your home girls tell you leave me alone but it’s something about our connection that can’t be broken guess we’ll meant to be in each other life know I love you do anything for you if you need to talk I’m a phone call away hope you not letting these clowns play with your heart cause you deserve the world & all the stars in the galaxy cause your one of a kind
Love so rare heart so pure kisses felted like
Clouds, your so soft voice, so beautiful, so silly, so down to earth freaky as fuck take this dick, baby don’t tap on me putting every inch in your belly girl hope you know I’m still here for through it all forever friends
Can’t chill because we are going to fuck
Don’t matter where we at can be in public
I’m trying to feel that pussy grabbing
That ass all that shit miss you can’t lie baby this letter for you




Shiddd, you know I’ll always love you zy stay beautiful queen.

Yours truly

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‎برينتون نيكولاسي

’𝘐 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶’
The words I could never tell

’𝘈 𝘩𝘶𝘨’
That I couldn’t give you, no matter the day

’𝘠𝘰𝘶’𝘳𝘦 𝘮𝘺 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥’
I wish I had said.

But what’s the point of regretting, now it’s too late

I wished I had wiped your tears
And held you closely, dear
Whispered sweet nothings into your ears
And told you all about my fears.

And I wished you’d hold me
And tell me not to suffer alone,
Hold out your hands,
And pull me from the abyss.

But you left me in the dark, alone
Never even looked back, as I crawled.
I never wanted to hate you, the way I do, trust me,
I never thought I would feel this way about you, I swear.

But here I am hating you more than anything,
Trying to justify my wrongdoings
I know you mean well for me
But I can’t seem to shake these feelings

I know you love me,
But I can’t seem to give the same love back.
I am sorry for being a 𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦,
I am sorry for the things I lack.
Forgive me for being an ungrateful brat.

But you know it’s not entirely my fault,
You’re partly to blame too, if not all.
For the things that changed, remain unseen,
I wish I could tell you all the things, I believe.

The things that you couldn’t see,
Or did you just ignore me?

What am I?

What am I to you?

Am I a toy?

Am I a tool?

A satisfactory plaything
From that you like to play.

Or just another 𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦

That you wish you could erase.