Trusted you with my heart
How could you lead me Wrong
Won’t cry even know my heart
Heavy, my heart isn’t
Something you misuse guess my
Love isn’t worth it probably my
Karma from cheating on that girl
Won’t trip know I deserve it just wish
It didn’t hurt when I love done gave
You all of me just for you to tell me
It wasn’t enough. Been through
hell & back loving the wrong women
How could you mislead me thought
You wanted forever
hurt to say I had real
Love for you fuck it now no more love
Left in my heart smoking forgetting all our
Memories can’t believe you lead me wrong
Shame on me for letting love blind me. How could you lead me to my doom shame on me for letting love blind me thought you loved me, girl
Now my heart leaking lead me wrong my heart all torn hate love songs want to know why you lead a nigga too his doom got me writing bout how much I dislike you could never hate anyone no matter how bad you do me wanna see everybody win just not at my table text messages from you asking can we talk ain’t nun to speak about had to block your crazy ass how we turn from lover too strangers lead me wrong won’t speak on our situation know what you did kept it real on my end. Can’t believe you lead me wrong fuck you fuck love  lead a nigga too his doom baby heart broken yungeen hate love songs just want real love guess that’s too much to ask for so I’ll just thug it out.

Yours Truly
- برينتون نيكولاس

Separate


Heard rumors from people I love the most crazy had to separate myself from people i would kill for heart so cold from giving the wrong people my loyalty forever my brother keeper even know niggas showed me true colors forever walking ina rain long talks with my little bro bout that money forever having still got plenty money in my kitty sorry momma for stealing your perks had to make something shake was tired of not having shit heard niggas talking crazy on my name smiling in my face like everything gravy bitch how this 40 taste empty clips all on ya dome separated myself from the fake created my own lane ain’t nun like these other niggas ima real nigga through it all seen niggas turn bitch when em cuffs got put on em crazy my dawg own blood told on em separated myself for a reason these niggas ain’t real as they claim to be so separation was a must free my dawgs out em cells backwoods filled wit hazes smoking till our eyes blood shot red pain in this blunt separate myself just tryna betta myself chasing bread no cheese no rat feel like frank Matthews might disappear money good looking outta town feeling golden with the word play all in her mouth like toothpaste putting white all in her mouth like Colgate name in my phone no gag put the whole dick in your mouth baby make it disappear let’s get toxic fuck you like I love you she throwing pussy at me but don’t even want it got bitches black Austin powers is we shagging now or later bring your friend with da ass two perks in me for stamina ain’t tryna bust all fast baby put that throat on me before I leave another one lick the balls bitches crazy all I did was keep it real know I broke a couple hearts don’t give a fuck we ain’t married baby a girlfriend won’t stop me from finding my wife had too separate myself from shorty too many red flags ain’t changing into something you want when another bitch gonna love me for me just a poet tryna survive this wicked world shouldn’t be alive right now I’m thankful found my purpose enjoying each day showing you my mind painting in your head tell me see walking ina rain do you see the pain in my eyes tell me do you really feel me don’t lie too me keep it real separated from everything
ain’t lose rhythm just separated myself from everything to get here fuck love but i want real love .




- برينتون نيكولاسي

The girl I once loved
Was the most beautiful of all,
With a radiant smile, and the kindest soul.

The girl I once loved
Had dark brown hair and big doe eyes,
Her soulful voice, her smile so wide.
She was as an angel in human disguise.

She was the person I looked up to,
Someone with whom I’d forever want to be.
We grew up together, a promise of ’forever after’
Shared stories and laughter.

The girl I once loved
Was the most beautiful of all,
With the kindest soul,
And a radiant smile to recall.

To the girl I once loved so dear,
I wish I could convey how much I hold you near.
In my heart, you meant the world to me,
All the things that made you perfect that you couldn’t see.

I wish you could see through my eyes,
Feel what I felt, no disguise.
To the girl I once loved dearly,
I hope to see your smile, sincerely.

To you, my dear love,
With the prettiest smile from above,
My first love, my life,
I hope you’ll smile again in time.

To you, my dear, my life’s treasure,
My love for you, no one can measure.
The world may not understand, but let them be,
Your happiness is everything I need to live.

To you, my dear, so pure,
The girl I still adore,
May you find happiness again.

The city is still bleeding


Bunch of blood sucker
Snakes that come
In different forms
Better keep your
Eyes on your own
Paper better watch
Your homie all them
Slick shots going turn
Into your demise your
Bitch ain’t your bitch
So you better focus
If she ain’t showing
Loyalty leave fuck
Is you staying for
Better not think with
Your dick or your heart
She’ll leave you for
Dead to if you risking
It the wrong way better
Not have nobody in
Your business now
Everybody a witness
Don’t know who telling
Stay off the internet when
I was growing up we didn’t have
Nobody posting they every move
Stay off the grid they watching us
Easily now stupid mother fuckers
You hustle to disappear not to be seen they hustling backwards tired of saying free my niggas couple of the guy’s died on the late night having fun somebody always fucking up the night got me stay indoors bullets ain’t got no names you can get caught at the right wrong time you just trying have some fun book a couple bitches who would’ve ever thought you wouldn’t make it home something told you stay in tonight but you been inside too long now you dead city fucked up it’s a dirty bird city here better not get caught in the wrong hood on the late night they’ll strip you for you everything might end up at leaking park crawling bleeding out I’m lying they’ll kill you right there in the middle of the street they drawing you up like a artist it’s a repeated pattern again and again when will it stop who gonna help my folks raise them kids another fatherless child world full of evil When will the world reset cause we need some saving


Yours truly

‎برينتون نيكولاس

’𝘐 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶’
The words I could never tell

’𝘈 𝘩𝘶𝘨’
That I couldn’t give you, no matter the day

’𝘠𝘰𝘶’𝘳𝘦 𝘮𝘺 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥’
I wish I had said.

But what’s the point of regretting, now it’s too late

I wished I had wiped your tears
And held you closely, dear
Whispered sweet nothings into your ears
And told you all about my fears.

And I wished you’d hold me
And tell me not to suffer alone,
Hold out your hands,
And pull me from the abyss.

But you left me in the dark, alone
Never even looked back, as I crawled.
I never wanted to hate you, the way I do, trust me,
I never thought I would feel this way about you, I swear.

But here I am hating you more than anything,
Trying to justify my wrongdoings
I know you mean well for me
But I can’t seem to shake these feelings

I know you love me,
But I can’t seem to give the same love back.
I am sorry for being a 𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦,
I am sorry for the things I lack.
Forgive me for being an ungrateful brat.

But you know it’s not entirely my fault,
You’re partly to blame too, if not all.
For the things that changed, remain unseen,
I wish I could tell you all the things, I believe.

The things that you couldn’t see,
Or did you just ignore me?

What am I?

What am I to you?

Am I a toy?

Am I a tool?

A satisfactory plaything
From that you like to play.

Or just another 𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦

That you wish you could erase.

I hope you set yourself on fire
And chase the most dangerous place ’hell’

Fill your life with laughter and joy
Cause this is your last chance to enjoy

Your wildest dreams will come alive
Dreams that will be dreams forever
Because After that
You never gonna wake up

Dreams that you’ll never miss
Life that you’ll always miss

Rumor has it,

My muse is gone,

Jumped the fence,

Is over the pond,

Maybe they’re sitting with Austen or Twain,

Laughing at my failures, enjoying my pain,

My muse doesn’t leave me too often,

Generally because I hold them hostage,

But today the knots on the ropes slipped,

And rumour has it my muse is gone,

It’s hard to write with a muse on the lamb,

I’m sure you all noticed that last bit didn’t rhyme...

But my muse is missing, and they’re wasting my time!

Maybe they’re sitting with Rowling or Seuss,

Slipping poison into their cups that will inevitably be blamed as writer’s depression,

Good riddance

Rumour has it,

My muse is gone,

Hopped onto a train,

And then brutally murdered a man with two kids named John,

In order to steal his identity, break off his happy marriage to Claire and ”elope to Spain with the nanny” leaving the real John’s corpse on the train where all the other passengers will soon be blamed for his death like some Orient Express from hell-

WHAT?

Oh. My muse isn’t missing.

They’re in the closet doing acid instead.

Running in the darkness


Ain’t been feeling nothing guess
I’ll blame the pills fell back in love with the feeling of not feeling anything I’m facing everything
Growing pain got me separating
Myself from everyone twin & I wasn’t see eye to eye about some small shit
Don’t matter what we go through we get through it miss my sister haven’t spoke to her since that crazy morning I love you my  Nigga just want better for you got some shit to get right all this poor grammar got me in different situations where I don’t wanna express myself anymore is they even listening to me do you really feel me had someone tell me they love me just to change on me shit ain’t  hurt the pills took my emotions away I’m in love with alone time in my room looking at my bank account thinking to myself should I run away & get away from all this madness grew up a screw up my daddy want me build a strong relationship with my little brother don’t want him to ending  up like them suckers who pretend to be hard get in the court room telling everything seen a lot of my close friends lose their freedom from putting they trust in the wrong people same nigga say he love you be the same one cross you out for some bread really hate a lying ass bitches won’t see me cuffing nothing don’t even speak pig Latin
Been awhile since I felted like me back in my shoes had to take a look in the mirror & find my soul through my eyes running through the darkness trying to find some better land wrote Lies in my feelings no more blues just a loner wondering why my momma keep asking me about grandkids told her I’ll probably never have kids cause I want a wife not a woman who can’t let go of her lust thrills had my heart played with too much trust issues got me not believing a word anybody telling me been trying detox my body ain’t eating meat going vegan no more processed food hard quitting cold turkey needed stop letting these pills
Melt on my tongue like they won’t
Destroy my liver already bad enough I’m drinking this poison won’t ever chase these women don’t even chase my liquor blocking more numbers not even sending out little letters to anybody been keeping to myself I’m at peace feel good to be stress free said at the beginning of the year more money less stress
cut them old friends out my circle they was chasing highs same mother fuckers who’ll smile in your face be the same ones sneak jabbing you ona net jealousy come in many sharps and forms don’t think I’m better just know I’m realer won’t pick sides keep my name out your mentions been doing good at not snapping out still feel the rage in me waiting to escape again can’t lose my freedom my mama & them need me I’m the man of the family gotta break all the family curses can’t let nobody take me off my mission had a moment the other day when I felted my emotions saw a video of my dawgs we was so young cutting not giving a fuck remember telling myself if I fail the 12th grade ima sell girl & boy still get a little rush from hitting plays nah I’m not big time never took no fronts always asked questions needed know your numbers don’t worry I won’t fuck you over remember what Sosa told Tony well I listened got in close never burned any bridges got in good with the right people still tied in with gang members I’ll never come home but I’ll rock a dude for my brother his momma ain’t the only person who gonna be crying running in the darkness trying to get away from this life they waiting for me death around the corner not dying no time soon told my niece till two hundred and I keep all my promises cross my heart hope to die in the darkness running for my life see the light it getting closer don’t care about what they pushing nowadays I stand on what I believe they falling for anything should’ve went to college been reading books from Yale reading
list trying open up my mind hate small talk be wanting deep uncomfortable conversations lets uncover something tired of hearing about the same shit that won’t make a impact on our lives don’t want my future kids to struggle won’t spoil them but they won’t see what I had to endure was a bad kid my momma miracle child was so wick should be glad I got homeschooled really was acting a fool in elementary no fear in my heart put hands on anybody never backed down from nobody
Couldn’t read for shit & didn’t learn how to write in cursive knew how to
Make money always had the hustle in me was around to many hustles learned the game from so many different people on what not to do
Free all my brothers we don’t bleed the same blood but love them like my momma birth them remember little bro lost my whole pack brought my first set of fronts the next the day my nigga till the end only got one real friend everybody else just be here sucking a nigga energy they really dislike me cause I ain’t gotta hide behind a mask yeah I hide my emotions I’m honestly trying to suppress this anger in my heart
Seen so much that left me scared mentally and physically can’t
Imagine living no other way love what made me grabbing my things time to get out of survival mode had to leave just hope you understand we all here for a reason know my purpose just pursuing a hundred miles per hour in the darkness
Hoping not to crash lost a tire
On the road had to get my hands
Dirty a few times still shake in my sleep was doing good at not pooping pills done relapses had to numb myself mind was racing not writing had me losing my mind had to spill this little letter to let you know I’m good

Yours truly

‎برينتون نيكولاس

Love is wonderful,
It can happen to anyone.
Love is sweet,
Like hot cocoa in the rain.

Love is a feeling, strong and deep,
Not just a fleeting emotion we keep.
It develops over time,
With trust, understanding, and belief.

Love is warm,
Like the sun on a winter’s night,
Not too hot, not too cold, just right,
Like a gentle spring breeze,
Like ice cream in the summer’s heat,
Like a warm, cozy blanket on a winter day,
Love is a pure emotion that can chase coldness away.

Sometimes, love provides you with comfort, care, and energy.
In a loved one’s warm embrace,
Like a home where one feels safe.
Love is an emotion so deep,
Yet we still want to take the leap.

Loving means dedicating one’s life to a loved one,
Choosing to be with them every day,
In happiness, sadness, sickness, and in health.

Love is not a fleeting emotion;
It develops over time.
It may knock on your door or pass you by,
Sometimes, strangers become something more,
Sometimes, people become strangers, no longer at our core.

Love can make or break,
It can be sweet but also bitter,
It can be warm but also cold.
It can fill colors in a mundane life
but it can also turn your world gray and disarray.
It can make you feel like swallowing a thousand needles,
Ripped out and cut into a thousand pieces.

Sometimes love or the heart may change,
Sometimes, over time, love may fade,
And sometimes it leaves us feeling empty and alone,
Broken and stranded on a summer’s eve, and cold.

But we still love, for it’s a feeling unknown,
That can’t be controlled or overthrown.
It hurts, but it’s worth the pain,
Sometimes love is in the pet you hold dear,
Sometimes it’s in a friend about whom you care.

Love is just a feeling,
Whether romantic or platonic,
Love is in the embrace of
Parents, friends, and siblings.
Love is in the little things that make you smile,
Warm and fuzzy inside, even for a while.

But love is complicated, for it can make you dizzy,
Sometimes people go crazy, oh so busy.
Love is complex, like a puzzle to untangle,
But love can be the missing piece of a broken angle.

There are different kinds of love,
Sometimes it can be forbidden,
Make you feel like the illness of society,
Sometimes others see you with disgust,
But love is love, not the same for everyone,
It’s just a feeling that can’t be controlled,
It can happen to anyone with anyone.
Love is love, just a feeling unknown,
There are different shades of love, known
Above all else, the greatest kind of love is
Loving yourself.



PS: Inspired by all the comments on my post about love, thank you so much to all the people =D
I didn’t use any pictures because I didn’t want to use just one image. Love has different forms, and using only one picture doesn’t seem right haha
(I wrote this in a hurry so I may edit this later )

Rain

So in love with
The rain tryna
Find the rhythm
Wit two left
Feet love the
Rain wanna
Slow dance
In the rain let’s
Kiss passionately
tongue all over
Your neck
Love the Rain
storming all night
Flood da sheets
It’s a ocean in my bed
rain on me
deep in her guts
  no quick Busting
Cmon baby let’s switch
positions suck it sloppy
got me sprung like ankles
storming All night
flood the sheets
got her screaming
All night no minute man
Don’t even drink Minute Maid
Made her cum five times
need you to come some more
Rain on me baby don’t tap out
On me..

Yours truly
- برينتون نيكولاسي

Die soon

Don’t wanna die soon
Wanna live forever momma
We straight forever remember
All em 15 minute calls with my
Dawg sending letter after letter
Pouring pain don’t wanna die soon wanna live forever should build a better relationship with my older sister cause don’t want her think i have hate in my heart for her love all my siblings just know big bro clearing a path for all us to win forever had too separate myself from em pussy’s too much sucka shit ina air everybody fake all the love plastic can’t believe i gave my heart too a woman who didn’t deserve my heart fuck these bitches still wonder why shorty running from them results number ain’t change don’t want you neither all these bitches ran through where the exclusive bitches at ? Don’t wanna Die soon wanna live forever
Seeing everything for what it is can’t get too deep just know been seeking for my soul in this evil world Praying God protect me from em demons don’t wanna die soon wanna live forever city full crabs pulling you down when you get too close to the top better keep your grass cut snakes be your homies own blood ah rat on you kill you over that money don’t wanna die soon wanna live forever eyes wide open pay attention too everything paranoid da money bring the envy be hearing all type of rumors just laugh an count mo bread bitch get off my dick go get some money feel like uzi all my friends dead still the same nigga when I ain’t wit da gang ain’t never coming home forever road running pistol packing praying I live forever get money forever still with the guys play pussy watch this ratchet slut you out
Don’t wanna die soon wanna live forever , forever drag too my niggas in heaven . Don’t wanna die soon wanna live forever
Don’t wanna die soon
Wanna live forever & ever
Hope to come back as a griffin
Hope to live forever don’t wanna die
Soon wanna live forever can you feel me don’t wanna die soon wanna live forever remember if this our last conversation I love you all & I’ll forever.

Yours truly
- برينتون نيكولاسي

Ain’t no love like my daughter love ain’t even got kids but I know the feeling of real love got some flaws
Hope you love me through the storm
Use to the fake love know they gonna leave my side ain’t nobody
Real as I in my eyes seeing the bigger picture more money put away my Dawg told me keep my eyes open
They showing they hands still playing stupid like I’m blind to the fact that love isn’t real laying with another woman who falling in love with me told her I’m not interested in love at the moment rather kick it with myself don’t mind vibing out hope you deep as I not into small talk let’s build a empire get to know my sober side ain’t been drugging ain’t no more pain in my heart nothing else to kill but myself sorry I’m to alive
my heart isn’t beating the same
Just vibing come see me always on my mind know your addicted to my
Touch won’t mislead you just want to fulfill your desires not trying to grow old with you done with disconnecting relationships we can vibe out don’t get your heart involved I’m a dog that’s why I love seeing you on all four my little bitch don’t got love in my heart just fucking you till your pussy sore legs shaking non stop lick your pussy till your body levitating
Pass the ceiling fan if you truly love me tattoo my name on you like a autograph baby this is my heart in these pages I’m pouring everything out rather vibe and get to know you on a deeper level can we fuss and make up with kisses is you really for me who you with when you not wit me Too much go through my mind love I rather be alone do as you please the door is wide open don’t care for non of my Ex’s never had a girlfriend anyway just a bunch of wasted love no more love in my heart only person getting my love is me can’t be loving on you bitches too much wasted love too good of man to wasting time on dead end relationships tired the ship syncing all the data deleted won’t allow you to program me can’t be controlled can’t play tricks on me knew along ain’t surprised seen it from the beginning turned my heart off I’m in the wind calling my spirit not broken honestly don’t care I’m grown from the situation face everything move on don’t care about mental scars know they gonna hurt me the closest to you always tears you apart don’t care about the pain killed it all with a ten now I’m back in my thoughts sorry meant to say back on feet
All alone don’t mind the time alone bunch of messages from freaks I don’t even wanna fuck just be bored entertaining conversations don’t take you serious could open my heart again but I’ll keep it locked away for myself focus on my peace
Cause I’m more happier alone at the moment no stress just remain patient with myself creating better vibes staying pure not breaking no hearts
I hope you understand we just fucking love .

Yours Truly
- برينتون نيكولاس