Rumor has it,

My muse is gone,

Jumped the fence,

Is over the pond,

Maybe they’re sitting with Austen or Twain,

Laughing at my failures, enjoying my pain,

My muse doesn’t leave me too often,

Generally because I hold them hostage,

But today the knots on the ropes slipped,

And rumour has it my muse is gone,

It’s hard to write with a muse on the lamb,

I’m sure you all noticed that last bit didn’t rhyme...

But my muse is missing, and they’re wasting my time!

Maybe they’re sitting with Rowling or Seuss,

Slipping poison into their cups that will inevitably be blamed as writer’s depression,

Good riddance

Rumour has it,

My muse is gone,

Hopped onto a train,

And then brutally murdered a man with two kids named John,

In order to steal his identity, break off his happy marriage to Claire and ”elope to Spain with the nanny” leaving the real John’s corpse on the train where all the other passengers will soon be blamed for his death like some Orient Express from hell-

WHAT?

Oh. My muse isn’t missing.

They’re in the closet doing acid instead.

Liberated, we can show this
nationalism what we can do!
You are democratic to me,
and I am democratic to you!
Vote for me until the fight against
Serbian nationalism has been won!
His despotism and fascism
aren’t gonna give a thing to us!
In democracy and liberty,
we put our faith and trust!
Staying democratic,
we must, we must, we must,
turn his nationalistic ass
ashes to ashes, dust to dust,
with our Hearts of Iron!
With our will to Ultra Kill!
To never lose our
true Serbian way!

I’ll confess to you that my love
Is pure I’ll be honest with you
can’t see why you being
All stiff like I’m not worthy or
Something maybe you should
See the bigger picture before it’s
Too late already started dating the
Woman I want the most don’t see me but I see her she’s everything to me see your value girl left all my bags at the door opening the door leaving all my past traumas behind me couple failed relationships taught me to control my mind don’t spill to much only vent to momma know she won’t use my words against me saw potential in me when I was dying in front her eyes happy to say I’m finally living different got my goals together &
Checked off the boxes behind tints
Can’t see me don’t want to be noticed hustling to disappear not to be seen invest in a brand with my brother can’t trust these other niggas can’t see why these bitches
Want to gold dig me cheap playing broke won’t buy you nothing teach you game through can’t put nothing pass you see through you like a lens
My vision clear see what’s really real life made me run under a rock had to move out that rock had to repair my mind had to learn them Niggas ain’t my friends couple of my day ones bitch made still love can’t be around me if you ain’t loyal see through everybody ain’t no getting over on me no words unless it’s from the chamber my heart bleed black ink I’m evil trying cleanse my soul hopefully you see me cause I see you know they creating false narratives about me say whatever don’t care less if I can’t learn from you don’t want to be around you not into
gossip what’s the facts niggas worried about the wrong shit I’m just trying tuck all my money away baking power in a Sandwich bag in the floor board been saving since I moved shorty still think I was fucking off on her confused her mind when I said I didn’t fell in love with my other life I’m really head first littlest soldier don’t get your head gone lied about a situation real reason shit went left crazy I become everything I lied to shorty about one step at a time ruining my life could’ve been something by now slow grinding puffing till my lungs hurt eyes low
Voice all low they keep saying huh my fault I’m in my mode doctor want to put me on crazy pills cause my bipolar mind happy to know about my mental state some call me crazy for thinking too much they say I’m killing my own happiness with negative thoughts did you know they get washed away with pure positivity showed your hand poker face on see how you were playing , played along to see if you were honest with me couple women tucked away for the autumn season never single long but this time I’m remaining alone
phone dry still deleting numbers
No messages in phone just thoughts
Don’t mind sharing with you don’t make me regret being vulnerable with you somebody told me learn to let go love is my biggest down fall keep loving all the wrong women keep your head on your shoulders stay alone know you love yourself it’s just something about being alone got me attracting myself to anybody not setting up boundaries not learning who I’m dealing with only showing my silly side haven’t been serious yet cause she probably not going last to see that side of me rather cut my tongue out before I kiss somebody ass not begging nor staying anywhere I’m not wanted
Wasted so much time on wasted love seeking for love when love slowly seeking me just
gotta remain focus on the
prize no stress no drama no more social media no more distractions less talking more actions so distasteful of me to go back on my words not going to do that fool of me for not sharing my real feelings had people walking over me lying to like it was fun game or something never believe in they lies any fucking way
Smile with many but don’t trust any
Same way they smile in your face be the same way they laugh behind your back all them I love you don’t be real you feel it in your soul when someone isn’t right gotta stop
Annoying it always trying see the good in people when they show they intentions are bad only going to bite you in the ass you keep going through the sane cycle in life cause you not learning same mistakes expecting different results is insanity
Go check in the mental asylum
See your future behind bars if you don’t change your fucking life I’m begging you open your fucking eyes before they close forever soul in another body having weird flashbacks of your past life
If you die right now what the fuck would your impact be will they miss you celebrate your name will your name live forever or will you fade away just another distant memory
On somebody’s social media clip know they only truly love when your heart stops only people who will love you unconditionally is your kid & parents never had no kids only know one of parents careless about my father happy to say thank you for giving me a piece of your liver you still a piece of shit worthless I’m not you use to believe that I would turn into you mother told me her biggest fear is one of kids being strung out on drugs it hit different cause I was high of perks when said this to me
One of my friends overdosed got me glad I stop popping been clean off pills since 2016 same time my friend caught all that time like he going be able to see hundred years told me please find your purpose don’t be trapped by this system they waiting for us & jail turn Niggas to monsters
A lot of niggas don’t come back the same traumatized from the shit I been exposed to at a early age
reason we don’t think the same
The cross always come close never from afar enemies be your friends & family even the person you call lover may even hurt you cause they confused on if they want you never get entangled with someone who’s still in love with they past & shit
Stop dating cause her body is banging if her mind isn’t complexed
Stay away from her if she’s easy to get a conversation out of talking about we fake blah blah blah love a female who hate everybody & just want to get the money she live for herself she’s not trying please the world she love herself she wants real life vibes not social media couple goals the vibes I’m searching for is something peaceful someone who’s home to me my escape from the world my happiness not my full source can bring my own happiness & love don’t mind alone time dark room looking into the darkness syncing my mind to the other side
Trying to open my third eye unlock the door to my heart & flooded you in my full love no reason to give half thoughts one percent of me being dished out hope you can handle it I’m a plate full anxiety and depression once ruled my mind
Repairing the broken part of my mind hasn’t been easy can’t keep letting people in they keep hurting me with lies too many betrayal I’m trying my hardest not to switch into a person I don’t I don’t recognize pass the smoke I’m kind hearted loving down to earth deeper than the surface shows I’m to myself for a reason
Honestly haven’t met anybody who mentally connects with me on a deeper level I’m seeking more wisdom wanting to be more understanding taking responsibility for all my actions for all my fuck ups can’t right my wrongs but can right my life may not hear from me for awhile leaving wasn’t easy left no choice honestly no reason to stay when I already seen myself leaving you all behind switch my whole life in a flash don’t know nobody no more genuinely happy with my decision
Only if you know how many nights I thought of this dreamed of it manifesting in the dark searching for light in my life till I realized I’m the light you know I just had myself off for too long them days are over wrote this to reflect on some of the things I need to let go of reading all my old letters to myself sorry if you got caught in the tornado the storm is over & I finally gripped life by the horns the mental war is over the mind Is finally free no more darkness
The transition to being happy has been easy no bad vibes no negative energy just pure positively pure intentions chasing what makes me happy I want everybody to be at peace with themselves love themselves forgive themselves we all fall but it’s up to you how long you stay down .

X’s flies

Bianca drove me crazy Marie I miss you more zy still my forever friend eat this dick up don’t leave no mess Tiffany still crazy smoking the prettiest flowers with Latoya wishing coco stop playing keria ass tripping Kee Kee keep calling knowing damn well we won’t work we in two different states gotta couple bitches I wish I didn’t fuck crossed some off my bucket list wishing I didn’t break that girl heart would say your name really nobody business tho the karma of fucking over a good person is the asshole you end up with dragging forever running from my karma fuck love is you really going ride baby gotta couple bitches on the roster can’t be faithful love you all don’t want to let y’all go, love, y’all so much Kim’s lips feel so good kissing on me Cassie way thicker than Mira can’t believe you tried to run game on me bitch I started this bar que business can’t right my wrongs just dragging getting money fuccin bitches want to fuck every girl ina world Mo do tricks on the dick Courtney a real eater suck the soul out me Monica get this tender loving making love to her like we high school sweethearts April still creep off on her man for me want a older woman who cook & rub a nigga toes after a long day punching clocks She believe in a nigga dream-like, Coretta. Sorry I creep off, lover protecting myself, not just fuccin any ole bitch that’s opening they legs done built genuine relationships with these women they love how honest I am just added another one to the roster hope she fall in line if not on to the next got hella bitches can’t trip over anybody never head over hills just in lust let you in my mind she fell for my pure heart can’t let me go we fuccing even when she moves on can’t nobody do you like me, sorry baby love all my exes this a letter to them blame it on the liquor Henny got me texting Chloe even sent her a dick picture she texted back sending heart eyes saying is it still mine baby it’s yours tonight love fucking on Layla laying with Nova tripping off Brooklyn crazy New York bitch remind me of that bitch Tuesday Skylar the freak ass church girl the reason I’ll never go to church again in the bathroom
Watching her praying to my dick swallowing all my seamen, telling me my seamen sweet Peyton & Alexandra kissing each other in front me had to join Ebony yellow ass texted me she hate loving my black ass wish we were together. Dm full of nudes could start my own ebony magazine; Yasmine takes such great pictures, such a work of art. Glad I got to fuck you didn’t mean to fuck the homie cousin head was amazing tho
Brandi never forgot the nuts would do this thing with her tongue and would make me come instantly. Ashley loves eye contact. She Watches me fuck the shit out of her hand on her neck, deep stroking Ashley thinking about Anastasia fine ass girl you aging like wine Olive mad at me for not coming over it been over two months you going to act like that London always answer on the first ring we talk for hours she pull up roll a joint grab my hand & she smile always acting shy like she not a demon I’ll match your energy times one hundred just don’t tap out like Trinity talking all shit can’t even take no dick, Nicole had all that ass for nothing scared to throw it back talking about it hurt take some out oh man where’s Sabrina starting to miss Jennifer never mind the liquor is wearing off Angel with the bald head always had me sprung like ankles
Emma, can you get me stoned be my wake & bake in a morning Treasure would already have a nigga blunt rolled watching teen titans go talking shit on the phone girl shut that shit up her reply always would be make me with the side eye smiling hard know you been waiting but so has Simone who keep calling where you at I’m on my way right now Sage energy so pure conversation about buying land & starting our community no whites allowed Harmony wrote me from her cell told her can’t wait till she’s free Angela killed her nigga from beating on her crazy we don’t have self defense laws in my city know you at peace put money on your books still check on your mom’s & eat dinner with her she telling me can’t wait for you to slow down start a family Shit maybe one day Ms. Maggie till than forever

yours truly.

‎برينتون نيكولاسي




X flies

(Credits to Internet Money, Gunna, Don Toliver & NAV
DISCLAIMER: LANGUAGE, EXPLICIT CONTENT AND THIS IS NOT MY SONG. I DO NOT OWN ANY RIGHTS TO THIS SONG!)
Xanny bars, suicide door, brand new bag (ooh-ooh)
College girls give a nigga head in my Rafs (ooh-ooh)
Rockstar life, so much money, it’ll make you laugh, hey
These bitches, they hate, and you can’t miss what you never had, hey, hey
Off the juice (juice), codeine got me trippin’ (juice)
Copped a coupe (coupe), woke up, roof is missin’, yeah
Ice (ice), lemonade, my neck was drippin’
Ice (ice), lemonade, my neck was drippin’
Why? (Yеah-yeah-yeah) Why?
Why you wanna waste my timе?
I can tell you really hate your life
Bitch, your watch the same as mine
(Oh, oh, yeah) I can’t relate
Designer frames, I’m blind today
(Oh-oh) I’m never late
The money callin’, you needed space
Xanny bars, suicide door, brand new bag (ooh-ooh)
College girls give a nigga head in my Rafs (ooh-ooh)
Rockstar life, so much money, it’ll make you laugh, hey
These bitches, they hate, and you can’t miss what you never had, hey, hey
Off the juice (juice), codeine got me trippin’ (juice)
Copped a coupe (coupe), woke up, roof is missin’, yeah
Ice (ice), lemonade, my neck was drippin’
Ice (ice), lemonade, my neck was drippin’
Yeah, this codeine got me trippin’ (codeine got me trippin’)
Wish it was over, I’ve been rollin’ for a minute
I got the broad, she want the ménage inside the pla-a-ace
’68 Charger, duckin’ the laws, I might do the ra-a-aid, huh
I like to ride in my new bag and I got a new bitch in my lap
Counting up the blue strips with two straps, yeah, yeah
Huh, slide in the Lambo’, I slide in the Porsches
Huh, check my garage, I got too many choices
Walk around, got a couple mill’s stuffed in my bag
Stripper hoes all in my Rolls shakin’ they ass
Huh, we just ran a tab up at Nobu
You said that you never got high, I’ma show you
Xanny bars, suicide door, brand new bag
College girls give a nigga head in my Rafs (ooh-ooh)
Rockstar life, so much money, it’ll make you laugh, hey
These bitches, they hate, and you can’t miss what you never had, hey, hey
Off the juice (juice), codeine got me tripping (juice)
Copped a coupe (coupe), woke up, roof is missin’ (yeah)
Ice (ice), lemonade, my neck was drippin’
Ice (ice), lemonade, my neck was drippin’
Hey, yeah-yeah

Ain’t crushing on nobody
But crushing someone in
my sheets don’t mind
Getting nasty baby
want you all to myself
My last relationship made
Me Miss my first love
should’ve cherished her
We live to learn from our
Mistakes want real love
You can keep all the toxic
Shit been floating
Away from the city ain’t
No love here all my so called
Friends ain’t my homies
speaking foul on my name
Watch me blossom from
The dirt they threw on
My name baby come
Here I wanna spoil you
With endless love fuck
Them other bitches they
Ain’t you got me all
tender smiling when
Your name pop up on
My screen get butterfly
In my stomach when
You walk through the
Door hug you tight
Promise to never
Let you go this isn’t
A rhino I only pop
tens to slow the vibe
Down don’t want to miss
These moments with you
Don’t believe in marriage
But I’ll marry you will you
spend the rest of your life
With me cause without you incomplete You make me whole baby you are The blood that travels through my body you keep a Nigga together like my spine you really my heart in human form baby.
I love you too the moon
You’re so beautiful wanna
Wake up to your face every
Morning this a letter from my
Heart got me deep in love
& I don’t want our love to
Ever end just hope you feel
Da same way.

Your truly



- برينتون نيكولاس

Love doesn’t come in cute packages, it just happens~
There is no guarantee or warranty attached to it,
Nor you weigh it against gains or losses.
The heart opens up and falls, just a free fall.

You are just like a dream, so vivid yet surreal,
Even as I chase after you, like a child chasing a butterfly, you’d disappear,
You’ll fly to the sky, too high, out of my reach,
And I wake up in a reality where you do not exist.

The memories of those dreams fade as I open my eyes,
Though I don’t remember your face anymore, dear,
Your oceanic eyes, your radiant smile, I still remember vividly in my mind,
The sound of your laughter still echoes in my ears.

My heart still holds the pain near,
I recall your voice and your face, strained with tears,
Cascading like rain from the sky, like snow on a winter’s night.
A faint smile, a pained look on your face, that you used to hide.

I still remember everything, though you’re no longer near,
As if it were just yesterday when you were here,
Everything reminds me of you, I fear,
My heart aches at the mere thought of you, dear.

Like sunrays, your memories linger,
And reach even the darkest corners of my heart.
They won’t leave me alone, find their way,
Haunt me until I go insane.

#Morgie_Wrotes

I was brought upon through birth
From you to mother on Earth.
I cried and I cried for comfort
Until someone saw my worth.

As she saw me and my eyes
She looked up to the sky;
And gave her gratitude to the Almighty,
For she had finally received me.

The shards of our friendship is all that I have left,
Lying cold and lost for so long.
If touched, I’ll be left to bleed out alone.

Our memories are sharp like knives
And every time I remember one,
It feels like a stab to the heart.

Over and over, the pain continues.
You leaving was torture,
Like you were trying to get something from me
That I didn’t have.

Love is like a virus,
Sworn to hurt everyone infected.
People say the effects will wear off.
I’m not so certain.

You always had the tightest grip on me
Although, you only held on when it mattered most.
No wonder I wasn’t left bruised and bleeding.

You never gave us a real chance
Instead you built a brick wall,
Ensuring you kept me out of your glance

You pushed me out,
When all I wanted to do was help.
But you didn’t care at all.

It was always a shot in the dark with you.
But never a guaranteed hit.
You had me wrapped around your finger
Since the day we met.

You hit me where it hurt the most,
And you didn’t even seem to care that you didn’t miss.
And the bullet holes will never heal over.
Just like the memories I can never forget.

I miss you everyday,
You’ll never understand how much.
I would still do anything for you,
even though you wouldn’t even try for us.

***
Just know, I will always carry the shattered pieces of us with me,
No matter how many scars I gain from it.

I will always look through our memories,
Even if it means feeling like my heart’s been cut to pieces.

I would go through all amounts of torture,
Just to see you smile and be happy.

I would make myself sick of love,
If it meant spending one more day with you.

I would allow myself to be black and blue,
If it meant you holding onto me.

I would use everything I have to knock every wall you built down,
And I’d jump from the tallest building for you.

I will always take a bullet for you,
Even when it’s you pulling the trigger.

I would walk through the worst parts of Hell,
If it meant you giving me just one thought.

I will always feel this way about you,
But if I’m being honest,
On top of everything,
I wish I could forget you.

Like you forgot me.

Love is wonderful,
It can happen to anyone.
Love is sweet,
Like hot cocoa in the rain.

Love is a feeling, strong and deep,
Not just a fleeting emotion we keep.
It develops over time,
With trust, understanding, and belief.

Love is warm,
Like the sun on a winter’s night,
Not too hot, not too cold, just right,
Like a gentle spring breeze,
Like ice cream in the summer’s heat,
Like a warm, cozy blanket on a winter day,
Love is a pure emotion that can chase coldness away.

Sometimes, love provides you with comfort, care, and energy.
In a loved one’s warm embrace,
Like a home where one feels safe.
Love is an emotion so deep,
Yet we still want to take the leap.

Loving means dedicating one’s life to a loved one,
Choosing to be with them every day,
In happiness, sadness, sickness, and in health.

Love is not a fleeting emotion;
It develops over time.
It may knock on your door or pass you by,
Sometimes, strangers become something more,
Sometimes, people become strangers, no longer at our core.

Love can make or break,
It can be sweet but also bitter,
It can be warm but also cold.
It can fill colors in a mundane life
but it can also turn your world gray and disarray.
It can make you feel like swallowing a thousand needles,
Ripped out and cut into a thousand pieces.

Sometimes love or the heart may change,
Sometimes, over time, love may fade,
And sometimes it leaves us feeling empty and alone,
Broken and stranded on a summer’s eve, and cold.

But we still love, for it’s a feeling unknown,
That can’t be controlled or overthrown.
It hurts, but it’s worth the pain,
Sometimes love is in the pet you hold dear,
Sometimes it’s in a friend about whom you care.

Love is just a feeling,
Whether romantic or platonic,
Love is in the embrace of
Parents, friends, and siblings.
Love is in the little things that make you smile,
Warm and fuzzy inside, even for a while.

But love is complicated, for it can make you dizzy,
Sometimes people go crazy, oh so busy.
Love is complex, like a puzzle to untangle,
But love can be the missing piece of a broken angle.

There are different kinds of love,
Sometimes it can be forbidden,
Make you feel like the illness of society,
Sometimes others see you with disgust,
But love is love, not the same for everyone,
It’s just a feeling that can’t be controlled,
It can happen to anyone with anyone.
Love is love, just a feeling unknown,
There are different shades of love, known
Above all else, the greatest kind of love is
Loving yourself.



PS: Inspired by all the comments on my post about love, thank you so much to all the people =D
I didn’t use any pictures because I didn’t want to use just one image. Love has different forms, and using only one picture doesn’t seem right haha
(I wrote this in a hurry so I may edit this later )

Rain

So in love with
The rain tryna
Find the rhythm
Wit two left
Feet love the
Rain wanna
Slow dance
In the rain let’s
Kiss passionately
tongue all over
Your neck
Love the Rain
storming all night
Flood da sheets
It’s a ocean in my bed
rain on me
deep in her guts
  no quick Busting
Cmon baby let’s switch
positions suck it sloppy
got me sprung like ankles
storming All night
flood the sheets
got her screaming
All night no minute man
Don’t even drink Minute Maid
Made her cum five times
need you to come some more
Rain on me baby don’t tap out
On me..

Yours truly
- برينتون نيكولاسي