Life can turn at 3600
Sweet moment can turn into bitter moment
Certain event will come to test our stand
On certain of life when it comes living
Just be careful of what you ask of life.

Life happens
And this occurs every moment
Of life journey as we live our life
Here in this life many things abound
But in all be careful of what you ask.

The greatest asset
Anyone can acquire
Is not houses nor car and never wealth
But a peace of mind coupled with good health
‘cos when you have these two and God inclusive you have it all.

Be careful of what you ask of life
Life is like a game of card
You play it and it sweetens you
Other time you lose and that comes with bitter taste
The people you surround yourself

Will really go a long way
If you must have a fulfilled life
Especially the so called life partner
Can result to a slowing your journey
To achieving greatness and living out to your full purpose.

Be careful and watch it with all undivided attention
Because life happens and life is lived just only once
And that once make it matters shun all side distraction
Be focus as a cheetah racing off towards her prey
Be careful absolute carefulness of what you ask of life.

You are just like a dream, so vivid yet surreal,
Even as I chase after you, like a child chasing a butterfly, you’d disappear,
You’ll fly to the sky, too high, out of my reach,
And I wake up in a reality where you do not exist.

The memories of those dreams fade as I open my eyes,
Though I don’t remember your face anymore, dear,
Your oceanic eyes, your radiant smile, I still remember vividly in my mind,
The sound of your laughter still echoes in my ears.

My heart still holds the pain near,
I recall your voice and your face, strained with tears,
Cascading like rain from the sky, like snow on a winter’s night.
A faint smile, a pained look on your face, that you used to hide.

I still remember everything, though you’re no longer near,
As if it were just yesterday when you were here,
Everything reminds me of you, I fear,
My heart aches at the mere thought of you, dear.

Like sunrays, your memories linger,
And reach even the darkest corners of my heart.
They won’t leave me alone, find their way,
Haunt me until I go insane.

(DISCLAIMER! This is disturbing, but I promise you this is just a POEM! Nothing more)


That bottomless pain in my heart only caves in deeper as the days pass on
I feel like I’m drowning in my grief—
thick and sickening
Whenever I look at my reflection
my emotions slip away and I curse myself
My heart crumbles to dust
I want to break every mirror I see,
I never want to see the girl looking back at me ever again
I want to tear her apart
What happened to her?
I hate her so much,
this girl
I wish she never screwed her life up as she had
She makes me want to scream
and crumple to the ground
and die
Why do I have to see that girl
whenever I see a reflection?
What have I turned into?
What am I doing?
I hate that girl in the mirror
looking back at me
I wish she would disappear
I want her to die
and never come back
I’m drowning and I can’t. . .
I just can’t anymore
I never want to see her again
Just die already,
girl in the mirror,
whose eyes are full of pain
without a tear to drop
Just die

Time away


Time away something that’s needed me myself & I no freak bitches deleting all the threads fuck all them conversations it’s a new me approaching get to know the new me can’t come around no fraudulent vibes don’t show me a vibe you can’t maintain stop lying leave while the door open know I can be insecure know I’m hurtful with my words hope I don’t destroy your ego even know you took my mind away needed to getaway know my love pure made mistakes brainwashed myself smoking all this weed became lazy maybe it’s the people around me not doing much with they life mad at me when we link not inviting nobody rather be alone talking about where the freaks tired of freaks not into easy pussy give me your inner thoughts feed me knowledge give me chills when you come around fuck sex can I lay on your thighs tell you everything that took my heart away tell you about my son name hopefully you like it Dushane Greyson Harrell
See his face in my dreams hope to have a family don’t want no baby mama drama want someone forever lost to many good girls turned them all cold made my bed now I’ll lay on the bed full of nails don’t worry the pain I’ve been through can handle anything God throw my way know what came with the choices I’ve made in my life needed be more dependable be a man of my word be forgetting I even said shit smoke and forget everything just some random words on my mind not digging deep in my soul see my pain in my eyes my momma I sad the other day death comes for us all in the end I’m ready whenever my time comes hope I made a impact on someone life hope you see my thoughts when you close yours eyes only for awhile I swear to come back with something deeper hope you can wait for me if not I understand hope I’m your favorite hope your never give up on me just needed give my mind a break needed get away phone on leave me alone be watching my phone ring playing sleep not into conversations sitting in a dark room with my thoughts opening every page of my mind rewinding watching old memories like I can relive them wish some my friends didn’t die wish my friends didn’t have life in the can hope my brother make it out alive heard he in there fight for his life heard his mind all fucked up my nigga smoked some laced weed had his mind racing I pray my Dawg shake back shit getting crazier more bodies dropping it’s closer to home lost my brother won’t say Rest In Peace still want go to a funeral don’t want see nobody cold wanna see you smiling saying مارفن they really don’t know me they calling me Mar don’t like the new company I’ve been keeping leaches snakes in disguise been letting mother fuckers trick me out my spot playing with my intelligence like I didn’t already peep you hope you know I’m not mad disappointed in myself for holding on so long don’t know how to love & honestly feel like nobody for me cause what I want seem so hard to find someone who loves to talk start the intimacy my love language is deep talks touching & someone who gives hundred percent don’t leave me in the blind that’ll have me overthinking negative thoughts swallowing my mind got me in my feelings cutting you off don’t want any stress don’t want to add on with someone else bullshit when I’m already walking through the storm myself can’t give you my umbrella I’m finally drying off getting closer to my home paradise almost free only for awhile I’ll miss you too don’t worry I’ll hit you here & there maybe don’t want to lie to you so don’t quote me on that cause I’m at peace all alone so please don’t disturb me I’ll back in awhile just need some time away hope you know I’m cleaning my mind
it’s tainted ruined in better perspective leaving wasn’t easy but it’s only for a while I’ll see you soon promise to stay strong understand if you can’t hold on be everything you deserve the stars & every planet in the Galaxy never settle for less don’t look pass any red flags protect your heart don’t give in so easily love yourself don’t be so prideful get out your head time to move forward don’t look back any more fuck them past relationships friendships whatever live stress free be great love self travel invest open your mind see you soon.

Your Truly.

‎برينتون نيكولاسي

In the moonlit sky, our love takes flight,
A symphony of hearts, shining bright.
Across the stars, our souls entwine,
A love so deep, so truly divine.

Your eyes, like diamonds, sparkle with grace,
Reflecting love’s light upon my face.
In every touch, I feel the fire ignite,
Burning desire, passion’s endless flight.

Your gentle whispers, a sweet melody,
Captivating my heart, setting it free.
In every word, a love story is told,
A tale of two hearts, forever bold.

Together we dance, in an eternal embrace,
Two souls intertwined, finding solace.
In your arms, I find my sanctuary,
A love so pure, a beautiful sanctuary.

Through the storms of life, we’ll never break,
Bound by a love that nothing can shake.
In your presence, I find strength and peace,
A love that’s timeless, it will never cease.

So here’s my heart, offered in this verse,
A love that’s boundless, an eternal curse.
Forever entwined, our spirits aligned,
In this love poem, our love defined.

False love

You wasn’t in love
With me let’s stop
Pretending you
wanted to use
My good heart
Against me why
You bringing
Bitches up from
my past girl why
You so miserable
Why you playing
In my thoughts
Killing all my thoughts
Leaving marks on my
Mind smoke this blunt
To ease my mind after this
Blunt I’ll forget all about you
She keep calling from
unknown numbers yelling
In my phone telling me unblock
Her talking about you love me girl
Save that shit for another nigga dial
Tone on a bitch quick love is a two
Way street won’t crash out for no
False love can’t believe i almost gave
A fuck you ain’t love me wanted to use my good heart against me how
Could you almost fell for your words
Putting two & two together won’t
Speak on what happened good on
You good riddance baby shouldn’t Even gave you that title you ain’t deserve it got me fucked up
Had me looking foolish glad you
Gone good riddance had me thinking about a bitch from my past wish I treated her better the karma of fucking over a good person is the asshole you end up with guess my soulmate is non existent asked a close friend to go half on a baby with me know we’ll create something beautiful know I’ll never have a family
Never to be married to much false love out here been outta town seeing different shit phone on airplane mode need more stamps on my passport been getting away creating stronger love for myself networking creating generational wealth from my thoughts so much False love
Almost fell victim so many times
No more False love just healing
No more false love Just loving me cause nobody gonna love me better than me remember your heart is divine stay pure don’t stoop down to their level of thinking love is real
It’s the cure to all your pain you must love yourself and give it to yourself it will return in abundances hope real love finds you one day cause everybody deserves someone who love them correctly don’t fall for word’s actions
Are everything don’t hold on to bad relationships let them go and be happy in life forget you even met them fuck them honestly.

Yours truly

‎- برينتون نيكولاس

Love is wonderful,
It can happen to anyone.
Love is sweet,
Like hot cocoa in the rain.

Love is a feeling, strong and deep,
Not just a fleeting emotion we keep.
It develops over time,
With trust, understanding, and belief.

Love is warm,
Like the sun on a winter’s night,
Not too hot, not too cold, just right,
Like a gentle spring breeze,
Like ice cream in the summer’s heat,
Like a warm, cozy blanket on a winter day,
Love is a pure emotion that can chase coldness away.

Sometimes, love provides you with comfort, care, and energy.
In a loved one’s warm embrace,
Like a home where one feels safe.
Love is an emotion so deep,
Yet we still want to take the leap.

Loving means dedicating one’s life to a loved one,
Choosing to be with them every day,
In happiness, sadness, sickness, and in health.

Love is not a fleeting emotion;
It develops over time.
It may knock on your door or pass you by,
Sometimes, strangers become something more,
Sometimes, people become strangers, no longer at our core.

Love can make or break,
It can be sweet but also bitter,
It can be warm but also cold.
It can fill colors in a mundane life
but it can also turn your world gray and disarray.
It can make you feel like swallowing a thousand needles,
Ripped out and cut into a thousand pieces.

Sometimes love or the heart may change,
Sometimes, over time, love may fade,
And sometimes it leaves us feeling empty and alone,
Broken and stranded on a summer’s eve, and cold.

But we still love, for it’s a feeling unknown,
That can’t be controlled or overthrown.
It hurts, but it’s worth the pain,
Sometimes love is in the pet you hold dear,
Sometimes it’s in a friend about whom you care.

Love is just a feeling,
Whether romantic or platonic,
Love is in the embrace of
Parents, friends, and siblings.
Love is in the little things that make you smile,
Warm and fuzzy inside, even for a while.

But love is complicated, for it can make you dizzy,
Sometimes people go crazy, oh so busy.
Love is complex, like a puzzle to untangle,
But love can be the missing piece of a broken angle.

There are different kinds of love,
Sometimes it can be forbidden,
Make you feel like the illness of society,
Sometimes others see you with disgust,
But love is love, not the same for everyone,
It’s just a feeling that can’t be controlled,
It can happen to anyone with anyone.
Love is love, just a feeling unknown,
There are different shades of love, known
Above all else, the greatest kind of love is
Loving yourself.



PS: Inspired by all the comments on my post about love, thank you so much to all the people =D
I didn’t use any pictures because I didn’t want to use just one image. Love has different forms, and using only one picture doesn’t seem right haha
(I wrote this in a hurry so I may edit this later )

Rain

So in love with
The rain tryna
Find the rhythm
Wit two left
Feet love the
Rain wanna
Slow dance
In the rain let’s
Kiss passionately
tongue all over
Your neck
Love the Rain
storming all night
Flood da sheets
It’s a ocean in my bed
rain on me
deep in her guts
  no quick Busting
Cmon baby let’s switch
positions suck it sloppy
got me sprung like ankles
storming All night
flood the sheets
got her screaming
All night no minute man
Don’t even drink Minute Maid
Made her cum five times
need you to come some more
Rain on me baby don’t tap out
On me..

Yours truly
- برينتون نيكولاسي

Ain’t crushing on nobody
But crushing someone in
my sheets don’t mind
Getting nasty baby
want you all to myself
My last relationship made
Me Miss my first love
should’ve cherished her
We live to learn from our
Mistakes want real love
You can keep all the toxic
Shit been floating
Away from the city ain’t
No love here all my so called
Friends ain’t my homies
speaking foul on my name
Watch me blossom from
The dirt they threw on
My name baby come
Here I wanna spoil you
With endless love fuck
Them other bitches they
Ain’t you got me all
tender smiling when
Your name pop up on
My screen get butterfly
In my stomach when
You walk through the
Door hug you tight
Promise to never
Let you go this isn’t
A rhino I only pop
tens to slow the vibe
Down don’t want to miss
These moments with you
Don’t believe in marriage
But I’ll marry you will you
spend the rest of your life
With me cause without you incomplete You make me whole baby you are The blood that travels through my body you keep a Nigga together like my spine you really my heart in human form baby.
I love you too the moon
You’re so beautiful wanna
Wake up to your face every
Morning this a letter from my
Heart got me deep in love
& I don’t want our love to
Ever end just hope you feel
Da same way.

Your truly



- برينتون نيكولاس

My heart 1


Condemn me for my sins
Throw it in my face; I’m just like my father. words hurt, huh
Tell me, what’s the last thing
You did besides live in a fantasy
Land creating madness, killing happiness, pushing every bitch
Away didn’t mean to call you bitch if you ever get pushed to the point where physical violence becomes a thing. Remove yourself, save yourself. They are not going to see your Vision till you show them
Tell them the real keep your fears exposed, live fearless, be heard my nigga Condemn me for my sins. I’m not perfect. Yes, I’m still learning. Yes, I’m painting a beautiful picture at the end
Don’t link me with gossip
Not really friendly sorry to me for not Being close to my goals got out of my sight, sorry to me for letting foolishness get in the way
Should be healing getting away
From the plan, stupid me back
Focus long conversations about
What needed be done, stupid me
Got lost in the sauce little baby thought I cheated stupid you how you think you got a lick back when I never stepped out of bounds stupid you Condemn
Me for my sins asking for forgiveness wash me in the blood of Jesus Condemn me for my sins
Can’t sleep when I’m not where I want to be at out working everybody writing, hoping someone feels me judge me don’t give a fuck this my truth my life been a fight since sliding out the pussy born with a crazy condition liver had to be removed a piece of my dads in my body they told my mom, I wouldn’t be able to do anything to being able to do everything beat all the odds death been knocking not time yet nigga got more living to do still haven’t had a family yet don’t see myself dying no time soon future looking brighter
See my plans working hear what they say I should do have a different method, have a different strategy would get deeper into it you’ll watching it grow in front of your eyes hope you proud of me for finally seeing the light in all this darkness killing all bad habits loving self-feeding my brain eating better learning to open up been so closed in used to be scared to live cause of my condition, telling myself bullshit to stay in nowhere land running for my life to a better life how can you hate me all I’ve ever did was show love feel me you do something wrong won’t speak on it know what you did I cherish your life think you should more see why people be dying snakes in disguise as friends & females pushing people to the point you’re life & my freedom doesn’t matter anymore free my brothers they all got trapped by the system back home to repeat the same action couldn’t be me did my dirt won’t get deeply into it won’t indict myself Condemn me for my sins my heart has changed done stressing got some growing to do can feel the change in my heart
My mind under Construction
Whole thought pattern changed
In a blink of an eye more comfortable in my skin, seeing myself in the mirror, motivated beyond measurement. The sky is the limit & it isn’t a limit on how far I’m going first in my family to do everything you’ll see mark my words feel my words fell in love with the ink if it ever dries up my heart has flat line & my story will live forever for generation & generation to come to never give up & give life everything make mistakes learn from them don’t regret anything save all your money don’t try to keep up with someone else keep up with yourself keep your eyes on your own paper never take for shortcuts grind nothing is given to you must work for your wants life a bitch I know keep your head up & keep pushing through stay calm through the storm.


love forever
- برينتون نيكولاسي

For me, you are my entire world,
But to you, I’m just a lost star in the dark sky.

For me, you are my shining light,
the only thing I see in the darkest times,
But to you, I’m merely a fading,
colourless rainbow after the rain.

For me, you are and
will always be the only one in my small world,
But to you, I am just
one of those extras in your huge world.

For me, you’re my everything,
Yet to you, I probably mean nothing.

I let in all too many feelings,
My emotional self, a situation I wish I wasn’t in.

So many things that I should’ve kept unsaid.
So many times I felt like a maniac.
I lost track.

Getting emotional at two in the morning,
Bad habits.

So many feelings,
It feels like a part of me is suffocating.

Growing up, whatever the hell that means.
Feelings I can’t get over.
I thought It’d be a dream.

Why do feelings hit so hard in this life?
Why can’t I get over them in one night?

Too many feelings,
Too many times stuck in the pressure of my head,lying awake in bed.

I don’t know if my friends actually care,
Is this growing up?

I’ve seen better days,
Please, boys stay away, my head is cramped without space.

I feel like I’m stuck,
Work that needs to be done,

But I need to drink something, maybe more oxygen will reach my brain and help me be okay.

Too many feelings,
Keeping up with every one’s selfish dealings.

Tryna be perfect for their expectations.
When they don’t understand, nor do they want to get what I mean when I say I’m doing greatly.

I’m tired of myself.
Of everything ahead.
That I haven’t experienced yet.

I thought I was courageous,
But I’m not brave.

I thought I had strength,
But I don’t feel strong.

I thought I could take on whatever
But feelings contribute to the matter.

All too many feelings.
To be honest, I’m tired of enduring.