Kadens Pov

jade has left me with not a decision to make.

leave Saige and be with her or stay with saige, possibly putting her at risk.

what do I do? I don’t wanna see her get hurt but I don’t wanna hurt her by leaving.

it’s been two days since Jade has given me the ultimatum and Saige has quickly picked up on my distance.

…

I look next to me seeing my beautiful girl laying next to me, but I know I can’t stay here with her.

I lift her arm from off of my body, and get out of her bed. Her small body moves around as she whispers “Kaden.. where are you going?” I pretend not to hear her, it’s better that way.

I leave her there alone, as much as it pains me to do it, I have too.

I grab my phone and click Jades name, typing out my decision “I’ll take your offer” I press send and lock my phone.

I walk outside and spot the minibar, I really should be drinking, I’m supposed to stay sober but after dealing with this shit I really need a drink.

i hesitate for a minute before picking up the bottle of whiskey and pouring a glass, I take a sip as the burning sensation fills my throat.

one glass wasn’t enough, two turned into three, three turned into four and four turned into five.

My sobriety has completely been wiped away.

regret fills my mind as I put away the whiskey leaving no trace of it.

I walk down the sidewalk in need of some fresh air to clear my mind.

saige is going to hate me for doing this to her. She trusted me. She loved me. Kam is going to hate me. Mom, dad, Karson, sawyer and Trisha will all hate me for breaking her heart.

nobody knows how much I hate myself for doing it.

the way I walked away from her. It killed me.

I walk a few blocks before hearing a deep raspy voice “Kaden Miller, it’s been a while” he taunts

”dom” I say as my jaw tightens and my body tenses

“What’s life like being out of the gang? I hear you got your sweet little Jade back. She’s got a kid now is it yours?” He questions

“I have nothing to say to you Dom, get the fuck out my way” I shout pushing him

that was the worst mistake. Dom swings at my face hitting me in my jaw, I’m not in a full on street fight once again.

I don’t know why the even try, I beat the shit out of them every time. Yeah, they fuck me up a little bit but I walk away with no broken bones, just a few bruises and cuts.

“I’m warning you Miller, this is the last time, next time I see you I expect my money” he spits while walking away to his car

fuck.

I thought this part of my life was gone. It keeps haunting me.

I make my way to jades house, I take my phone out sending her a message “I’m outside. Let’s talk” I press send and just a few short minutes later she’s standing in front of me.

“smart of you to take my offer, you must really care about this one” she smirks

“cut the shit Jade, I will take the offer only for Saiges sake. I will not sleep with you, I will not marry you and I’m not okay pretending to be stepdad. You’re nothing but a fake show for everyone else” I make clear to her my only intentions is to keep saige safe

she scoffs as she turns around to walk back inside her house and I make my way back to the beach house.

i look at the time and it’s 2:04 am

I hope saige went back to sleep, I can’t let her see me like this

oh boy, she most definitely did not go back to sleep.

i walk in the door, saige is sitting on the couch staring at the door and her eyes are now on me. Tears fill her eyes and she looks at me so lost.

there’s nothing I can do. I hate it.

“Kaden.. where have you been going?” She questions

“no where Saige” i say trying to brush her questions off

“look at you, you’re a mess” she says waving her hands in my direction

i storm passed her trying my best not to just hold her.

unfortunately she follows me up the stairs and into my room where she then wraps all the cuts on my hands and cleans my face up.

“Saige..” I whisper needing to tell her something before cutting her completely off

“hmm” she hums

I grab her face tilting her chin up so she’s looking at me “I love you and I’m so sorry, promise me you won’t give up on me no matter what” I whisper placing a kiss on her forehead

“I promise Kaden” she replies in a whisper

she lays down in my bed and I climb in next to her. This will be the last night I can peacefully sleep.

I pull her body close to mine, taking in every moment I can.

when she wakes up, I’ll be gone.

a few hours later I wake up and it’s 8:00 am. It’s time. I grab my bag that’s packed in my closet, leaving a kiss on her head I head downstairs out the door.

I look back at my house, tears swelling my eyes. This is it. She’ll never forgive me. Nobody will.

I throw my things in the backseat and drive to jades house.

I hate this bitch I really do.

I walk in her house where I hear giggles coming from the kitchen, before I know it a small toddler appears in front of me. This must be her daughter Kiera. She seems shy but I won’t lie she’s adorable.

I drop my bag down and sit on the couch.

I have no interest in talking to Jade I don’t even wanna be here.

“so I see you made it here, I’m just gonna make this clear, you’ll go back to FSU and make sure everyone knows you’re back with me, you’ll rant and rave about how much you missed me and loved me. That’s the only way this will work.” she explains her whole sick twisted plan

jade was never psychotic when I was with her, but it seems like she’s changed.

I would never be with her now, if it was a choice.

I did what I thought was best for saige. Even if that means she may hate me for the rest of my life..

saiges Pov

I wake up in his bed, but there’s no sign of him.

a few of his belongings are missing and there’s a note on the bedside table.

I pick it up and as I read the note tears instantly roll down my face.

“remember what I made you promise me last night. don’t forget it. I’m sorry I have to do this. I love you always Bella. Love,Kaden”

he left me. he fucking left me.

a painful scream escapes my throat as I fall to my knees on the floor.

I hear loud footsteps running to the room, the door is swung open where Kam finds me on the floor

“saige? What’s going on?” She says worriedly

I shove the note in her hands as she reads it her mouth drops open

she wraps her arms around me pulling me into a hug as she assures me it’s okay

I decided not to go to school today, I can barely keep myself together without crying. It probably doesn’t help I’ve been laying in his bed all day hoping it’s some sick joke but a part of me knows it’s not.

the passed couple of days he’s been leaving in the middle of the night but I never expected this.

I decide to go downstairs to escape the torturous reminders of him.

I sit on the couch and my mind replays last night when he walked through the door covered in blood and bruises.

I try not to cry but I just can’t help it.

i loved him. I didn’t even tell him I loved him.

kam stayed home with me today and has been trying to comfort me but I’m just lost. Nothing helps.

she made a few phone calls to their parents and his close friends, all of them said they never expected this.

his closest friends josh and Jace claimed this behavior isn’t like him. They think something else has caused him to make this decision.

that’s when it hits me. Jade. Her words fill my head haunting me “he will be mine again”. Is that why he left me?

kam brings me a glass of water, which I really needed. I feel so sick and dehydrated it’s unreal. I never have had my heartbroken like this.

“Saige.. I’m so sorry my brothers an ass” kam frowns empathetically

I manage to respond to her with a small “it’s okay” without crying. That’s one step closer to being okay.

I don’t know what I did to deserve this but one thing I know for sure is I never want to see Kaden Miller again.

my phone rings and it’s my mom. I’m assuming the news has made its way to her. I decide to go ahead and get it over with so I pick up my phone answering it

“Hey mom… yes I’m okay.. okay I love you bye”

not long after the short conversation with my mom ends my brother texted me.

“if I see him again I’ll kill him”

well.. I guess he’s more mad at Kaden now then me

….

a few hours have passed and I’ve gotten some strength to take a shower and somewhat get dressed. My hair is a mess and I don’t apply makeup fearing I may cry and smear it.

i take a walk to the coffee shop knowing Gio would be there

I walk in and he instantly spots me

“Hey saige.. you look a bit pale are you okay” he questions

those three words are going to break me, I’ve been doing good with not crying for the passed few hours until I heard those words.

”uhm… um.. can I just get my normal order please” my voice cracks trying to hold back tears

Gio hands me my coffee and I rush out of the shop.

well it looks like socializing may not be much help

I sit on a bench under a shaded tree and pull out of the new books I bought.

this is so far the most peace I’ve felt today.

Kaden Miller will soon be a nobody to me and I’ll make sure of it.

I love him so much, but I want to hate him.