Megatron had wanted this day to be just him and lilly; he wanted to make it the best as possible and ensure she was happy; he had planned everything from the moment he got out of his recharging or sleep. He didnt really have to sleep/recharge much but he did with lilly.

Although lilly wanted a little bit more, she knew he just wanted a simple day with her, nothing but them. Although he had a feeling that lilly needed to get a check over incase she could carry, he did read her medical report and felt sadden that she went through that pain. And wished for her to be healthy. Shes been going to therapy as well. Bumblebee has been taking her to her therapy appointments. Which today she had one.

"ready?" megatron asked lilly as she nodded in bumblebee direction who buzzed happily. "bee says that you'll do good in therapy" lilly smiled as. She climbed into the car before buckling in. Bee buzzed as to say "you are getting better, everyday you are proving that you won't allow what happened control you" which lilly felt happy about. Stopping at the building lilly walked in.

She checked herself in before sitting down; she listened to the sounds around her and smiled to herself not noticing someone had stopped in front of her. "excuse me! You need to stop staring at my husband!" lilly gave a confused look to whoever was in front of her the person sounded female. "i apologize if you think i am looking at someone, but if you can't tell i cannot see" the woman before her scoffed.

"you're not blind, blind people dont have bright bluish green eyes" lilly grumbled before closing her eyes in attempt to ignore the woman. She was in line of bumblebee who had amazing hearing and even com linked megatron so he could listen in and he was ready to murder. Optimus and the others listened as well.

"not everyone has the same blindness, i am in no need or desire to argue with you because arguing will only make me lose braincells and i happen to enjoy being smart; the fact i am not looking at anyone or even up at you should give you a clue, but i have to ask" lilly stated in a bored unamused tone as the woman scoffed before asking "what question?"

Lilly smiled sightly before crossing her arms "are you blind? Or just plain stupid because Anyone with half a brain can tell when someone is blind and yet you seem to have no brain at all. I feel bad for you, you should really see a doctor but i highly doubt they can fix you" lilly smiled as she heard her therapist calling her and moved into the direction only to be bumped into by the woman.

"I DO NOT LIKE BEING....." lilly cut her off with a glare in her direction as she stepped back away before crossing her arms and scowling venom dripping from her words. "listen hear, since you clearly do not have a fucking brain at all and i will try to dumb myself to your level, because clearly what i say isnt getting through, im fucking blind i have a goddamn husband; i have no interest in your husband but i feel bad because he could've done so much better than you" lilly shoved past the woman and smiled as her therapist spoke.

"you stood up for yourself, how do you feel about that?" lilly allowed herself to calm down and gently spoke. "i feel good" julia smiled as she was happy to have become lillys therapist. It helped her heal and grieve the loss of her son.

"what should we work on today?" julia asked helping lilly sit down on the couch and sat in her chair near lilly. Looking at the girl for any signs that might trigger her; she knew lilly had ptsd because she diagnosed her with it. Lilly pondered for a moment, she wanted to work on alot but she was unsure. She wanted to talk about what she felt but was unsure of how to explain it.

"i-i want to talk about what i went through that led me to be hospitalized, i am unsure of how i should" julia smiled kindly before speaking. "do not worry about that, just tell me what you felt and sensed, remember it is ok that you cant vision it because you are blind but using your senses will help too" lilly nodded.

"it was dark, not like the dark i can see, because i do have slight light perception so i can easily glance towards anything with light even if i do not where that light is, but this was darker, it felt cold too cold. I could feel the coldness against my skin and it was like ice; but stronger. I couldn't move, i dont know why but i couldn't. I felt these chains or metal objects around me they felt tight and uncomfortable" lilly had to stop as she felt tears fall. Julia gently held her hand knowing this was hard and she needed to work through this so lilly can began to properly heal. She had seen lilly in the hospital and vowed to be someone that she knew could help lilly overcome this.

"deep breaths, you are in a safe place and you are ok, i understand this is hard but we cannot heal unless you speak about it, you are with me right now we are not in that dark place" lilly nodded as she felt comforted by the words she took a deep breath before speaking once more. "i could hear voices, they were mad i took their friend from them, because i became his Girlfriend, i helped him find himself because he was struggling with what he wanted and i became that solace he needed; someone who wasn't going to lie to him and tell him what he wanted to hear but someone who told him what he needed to hear, these two male and female were unhappy. They kidnapped me. And took me to that dark place; i felt the female push something into my core; it kept going into me and out of me and it vibrated; i had this orgasm and i couldnt help but feel that because of it; i enjoyed it"

"did you enjoy it? Lilly, it is ok to have an orgasm; having one doesnt mean you enjoyed something Especially with what this woman did, did the man ever do anything?" lilly nodded "he would punch me; he kicked me hard where i felt my ribs break and i could feel myself passing out, i knew i was naked because i felt the coldness against my skin. And before i passed out i heard matts voice. He was trying to talk to me and i only managed to hear. "i love you" but that was it. I woke up in the hospital three days after."

Julia spoke gently writing down everything lilly said and looked at the girl who had managed to speak about this without crying which was a big step. "lilly i need you to remember when you feel a trigger coming on; breath deeply. Reach for something you can touch and keep touching that object, if the object is hard or smooth with a slight squish focus on the sensation and the way that object feels focus on what you think it might be"

Lilly nodded as julia smiled before writing down some more. "i do believe that we made progress; i am so proud of you and you are doing great you managed to get through this without crying and that is something to celebrate" lily nodded before leaving: she felt proud that she was healing. Slowly but it helped. Climbing back into bee she hummed as they pulled back into base as bee transformed back.

"lilly!" megatron asked quickly gently placing lilly on his shoulder giving her a kiss. "are you ok?"

"i am ok; but i was wondering what you and optimus were talking about before i left?" optimus only chuckled a little at lilly before answering the blind woman. "megatron and i were discussing sparkmates"

"sparkmates?" lilly asked confused and understanding this must be a transformer thing; she knew that it must be that but she wondered why they would discuss it. "sparkmates is your human term of a marriage; it different, it allows you and the other to sense each others feelings and talk without others hearing you, Megatron has been asking me because he wants to become your sparkmate, so if anything ever happens to you he can sense you and be able to help you, i think its a good idea. Though its never been done between bot and human?"

"actually optimus; you are wrong i do not wish to say you arent wrong but you are, jacob and i are sparkmates; its alot for a human but it doesnt harm them, lilly will only go to sleep after because it will drain her enegry but afterwards she'll feel stronger and happier" barricade said with a smile at the commander and leader. Megatron had listened and thought about it. "lilly should we become sparkmates?"

"YES!" she shouted almost too excitedly as megatron chuckled before he proceeded "i know you want to make this private but i rather do it here incase you feel sick or feel like passing out"

"Megatron i love you, please make me your sparkmate" Megatron nodded as he opened his chamber revealing his spark with dark enegron. Lilly felt everything from megatron; as their bond became strong, she felt and heard everything from him without speaking and he felt everything from her. They were now sparkmates, lilly still wanted an actual wedding as well which Megatron could sense. He closed his chamber as lilly closed her eyes falling into a slumber.

Megatron smiled before gently placing lilly on the couch to sleep. Kyle walked in and smiled at the two. "you have become sparkmates?" kyle learned everything about the transformers and their life. "i did, i feel nothing but happiness from lilly, she made me happier than i will ever be, i can't imagine my life without her but also i have a question"

Kyle smiled as looked at megatron who had an extremely confused look on his face. "go ahead"

"what the fuck is ooooh i do i do i dooo"

Kyle began to laugh as megatron still didnt understand a damn thing that was going through lilly minds as she was sharing her version of a dream to him.

"its a song from Hamilton, lilly loves the musical and listens to the soundtrack all the time" megatron nodded before smiling he sent lilly love and comfort through their bond to allow her a comfortable rest and lilly smiled in her slumber, she was happy and megatron felt that; he felt happy that he now had a sparkmate. He never knew what love was; he only felt hate and anger. Wanting to prove he was stronger and ruthless and yet this blind woman climbed into his life; gripped his spark and loved him. She proven that so many times.

"i love her"

"we know you do; you haven't proven otherwise and its nice to see you being this way; we had fought so much that we forgot to relax, lilly is a beacon a light to your ship."

megatron nodded in agreement to optimus words, as he felt that lily came into his life right when he felt like giving up; he didn't understand or know how she did it; but she managed to be a light of hope and shone so brightly that he found his way out of the darkness and only saw her waiting for him with nothing but love and understanding. She was his light and love and he loved her.