Lilly had gotten up that day; feeling better and happier; she had spent the entire evening with barricade and jacob as they took her for rides and even splurged onto her with gifts; she even felt happy and safe with them; she loved megatron but she needed her own friends and even though megatron felt out of sorts she reassured him that everything was ok. Yet lilly also knew she was lying to herself, she didnt feel happy at all.

everything she had gone through and all the hardships she faced. Things werent looking up for her in her own mind at least. She felt Like a prisoner unable to escape the confine spaces of her own mentality she was lost in thought remembering everything starscream did to her with blueshard; she might've not seen it.

Shuddering she continued to stare into the black vastness of her own termoil and only listened to pain of her own screams and begs. She just stayed in trying her best block out anything. She tried to focus on megatrons deep barritone voice. Or bumblebees happy buzzing; yet nothing worked. Barely feeling the steps beneath her feet she slumped down onto them. Just sitting there trying to tone out the horrors of her own mind.

(megatrons pov)

I smiled and looked at lilly; only to frown once i notice she was staying still; she wasnt talking or doing anything. I had no idea what was going on or how to help her; i felt my spark ache she seemed happy the moment she was home but i couldnt shake a feeling something was completely wrong. I turned to the other bots who were busy. "may i ask why lilly isnt talking or moving? Is she feeling ill?"

They looked to lilly before jacob walked over to her i watched him kneel down to sit next to her he wasn't saying anything as he only pulled her to him and motioned everyone to come around. We did and i felt a bit jealous but i wondered if he could help her; he did before.

"shes having a ptsd moment" jacob said as he stayed by her side. I moved to gently be near her standing next to the staircase incase she needed me. The others were gently waiting too. "what is ptsd?" i heard optimus ask sincerly hes never learned about mental health and i do admit i still am unsure what mental health is.

"ptsd is called post traumatic stress disorder; it is obtained when someone goes through traumatic events; as lilly here was; she has developed ptsd so she can easily be triggered. It doesn't necessarily mean any of you did something she could have an Amazing day and her mind can wonder off; mental health is an important part of a person. If they go through something that can deter their health or mental stability then they are not feeling ok and its not always being sick sometimes people are hurting in their own heads"

"maintaining complete mental health is vital; some people seek therapy which can help alot to produce the stability needed for a healthy mental brain because you can't fix someone who is going through trauma by medical uses or medicine. The best thing you can do is be understanding and let the person know they are safe"

I listened carefully as jacob finished and the autobots were all sitting around lilly as i waited for her.

(end of pov)

Lilly barely heard them speak; she tried so hard to focus on Megatron but her mind kept coming up with horrible memories and scenerios that could cause her more pain. She hated feeling this way but she kept trying to search. Searching her mind for anything that get her out. Until she heard it that voice in the back of her head. A sweet gentle serene voice. Filled with calming.

"You are safe young one" lilly kept listening for that voice she kept listening for it willing herself to listen as she allowed a smile to escape her lips she smiled as heard the voice she was searching for but yet that voice that sounded female and sweet helped her.

"lilly; my love you are home. I am here" megatrons voice rang through in her mind; she willed herself to imagine him there in her mind scaring away all the horrors she faced. She imagined him and leaning over her in a protective form shielding her. She finally let out a huge breath of air that she had no idea she was keeping in.

Lilly began to cough violently as she reached for the nearest thing which happened to be megatrons metallic leg as she gripped it coughing some more. "i-im sorry"

Megatron instantly picked her up; overlooking her before gently placing her on his shoulder as everyone stood around. "lilly are you ok? How do you feel? We learned that you had p i s t d moment?"

Bulkhead said wondering if he said it correctly looking concerned actually everyone did. Lilly was their friend; bulkhead remembered how caring she was and even was caring towards her enemies too.

"i think i will be somewhat ok; it will take time for me to heal, Especially with everything i went through and having ptsd isn't going to stop me from continuning on. Somedays i will lie in bed all day because i cant get up or just feel drained and Honestly its ok to not to be okay. because i have all of you. I Especially have you megatron. If wasnt for you i would probably be dead"

"im glad lilly i will never let you get hurt ever again" she smiled at his words before kissing his metal cheek and smiling deeply. She was safe with them.

She was home. But that voice that one voice she wished she could pinpoint who it was.

(introduction to carina will be only voice in a few of these of chapters but shes lillys mother. Her brain cancer should've worked but it didnt and the only thing that got her was the shard of glass which was echanted to kill a witch i will delve more into lillys backstory in the sequel for now enjoy this sneak peak of carina)

Carina had used what little magic she could; she began walking the vast emptiness of the shadow realm; she should've died. The only thing she remembered was her baby girl.

Lilly. Lilly needed her; lilly her princess she had to reach out to her. Had to talk to her but she didn't want to make her presence known. Lilly wasnt ready for more things to be placed upon her when she knew on her 21 birthday everything will come to light for her.

Carina was glad kyle kept her secret hidden from lilly all these years and even kept the identity of who she was away from lilly.

Carina had deeply wished to be by her side holding her and protecting her like a mother should yet she couldn't. She continued to walk down the long darkly lit hallaway that lead to nothingness.

Carina sighed deeply as she pulled open more doors; only to be met with more darkness. "great" she said and continued on with walking.

(so yeah carina is a big character just not jn this story. In the sequel she will be)

Lilly had sat with megatron outside as she laid on his large metal chest tracing his symbol with her fingers enjoying the feeling of it between her fingers as she rubbed it. Megatron hummed in delight looking at lilly with love in his optics.

The two spent the day together and even had a few sessions of kissing which left them in a moaning mess but he wouldnt trade lilly for anything. Nothing compares to her beauty or nature. He loved how she felt against him.

(lemon)

Megatron had activated his holoform; gently kissing lillys neck slipping his hand down to her dress and lifting it past her thighs just up over her hips. Growling in her ear. Lilly shuddered as she reached for his arm leaning into his chest and opening her legs. Megatron moved her cute little pink flower printed panties to the side and snaked his fingers to her clit slowly rubbing the bud between his fingers as lilly held her hand to her lips to keep from making any sounds.

"make those cute little sounds; i want to hear them" he growled plunging his fingers deep into her awaiting wet core; he continued to pump his fingers into her before kissing her. Lilly hungrily kissed him shoving her tongue deep into his mouth; battling his mouth for dominance as he won. Lilly decided to take control as she pushed him down onto the grass; the birds were happily chirping and animals were making their sounds. As lilly moved onto his lap as she gripped his member; pumping him with her hand before sliding him into her as she began to rock her hips back and forth against him; throwing her head back. Megatron sitting up wrapping his arm around her waist and latching onto her breast licking and sucking on her harden nipple.

He loved the feeling of her soft skin against him and enjoyed being the one to make her his. Gripping her tightly he began to buck his hips up as his member rammed into her; deeper than before. He stayed inside of her as he gently pushed her down; putting her legs onto his shoulder and began thrusting harder into her. Only hearing her sweet moans and her begging him.

"m-Megatron....ah....egatron....mmmm.....f-fuck......f-fuck" he smirked gripping her hips as he continued to thrust deeper until he felt himself climax as lilly did too. He felt her juices mix with his own and he quickly kissed her as he pulled out. Carefully dressing her.

"i didnt hurt you did i?" lilly couldn't speak the only words she managed to say "i love you" megatron chuckled he sometimes forgot that with lilly he had to slow down but she caused him to be ungodly.

"i would destroy the world to keep you safe"

"i know you would" she smiled as he was in his regular form as he picked her up and carried her back inside to the base.

"seems like you two had a lot of fun out there?"

"shut it, rachet" megatron said as lilly giggled waving in rachet direction as lilly yawned. Huddling against Megatron neck and closing her eyes. She was in love.