Poetry

My Unreturned Feelings...

Turning the pages of my worn-out book,
Mind drifting, floating somewhere, suddenly shook,
Headfirst to the ground, I fell, surprised,
When scribbles from back then caught my eyes,
In small letters written ”Hey I’m bored”
”Hey bored focus on the board”
A smile crept on my lips reminiscing of those times,
Yet strangely no warmth I find inside.

Stealing glances at you was my habit,
Praying not to get caught, I must admit,
How I miss those days, when on your face the sun would shine,
Admiring you from beside, hoping you’d be mine,
Turning my eyes away when you looked my way,
I knew it would end someday,
But unprepared I was, it took me a while,
To sit beside an empty seat, not seeing your smile,
Without the sun painting your face with its light,
I wasn’t ready to bid you goodbye, not quite.

As morning dawned, tears welled in your eyes,
You were moving far away from this tiny countryside,
I didn’t cry, said it would be fine,
But deep down, I knew it wouldn’t, I just lied.
Plans to meet made, promises to call,
But distance and time took their toll,
I am left alone in this small, familiar place,
Everything’s the same, but you’re not here to embrace,
Weirdly it feels like I’ve lost a part of me,
Regrets of what-ifs cling, tormenting me,
If only I had expressed what I felt and not been scared and slow,
Maybe it would have been easier for me to let go,
And live without these unreturned feelings that only grow.

I liked you years ago and I still do even now,
And I fear falling for another, my heart won’t allow.

P. S. It’s supposed be a story, I’m lazy that’s why I just made it into a poem...

shine coshine

Girl in the Mirrior

(DISCLAIMER! This is disturbing, but I promise you this is just a POEM! Nothing more)

That bottomless pain in my heart only caves in deeper as the days pass on
I feel like I’m drowning in my grief—
thick and sickening
Whenever I look at my reflection
my emotions slip away and I curse myself
My heart crumbles to dust
I want to break every mirror I see,
I never want to see the girl looking back at me ever again
I want to tear her apart
What happened to her?
I hate her so much,
this girl
I wish she never screwed her life up as she had
She makes me want to scream
and crumple to the ground
and die
Why do I have to see that girl
whenever I see a reflection?
What have I turned into?
What am I doing?
I hate that girl in the mirror
looking back at me
I wish she would disappear
I want her to die
and never come back
I’m drowning and I can’t. . .
I just can’t anymore
I never want to see her again
Just die already,
girl in the mirror,
whose eyes are full of pain
without a tear to drop
Just die

APRIL Flawless

I Did Everything

You told me to change
Said I wasn’t enough
You needed someone
to make you proud

You told me to be someone
I wasn’t
Indirectly urged me to lose myself
So I did

Now you’re asking me why
I’m not the same
Claiming it’s not how I was
supposed to be

Now you’re asking me why
I have changed
Tell me, what am I
supposed to do?

I listened to your words
with no choice
Did all you asked
Believing all was for the best
Believing your every lie

I did everything you wanted
Tried my best to meet your standards
Striving to be that child
who’d make you proud

But it seems as though I’ve failed
As if all I did is in vain
Because you’re still not satisfied
But I lost myself in the trying
Tell me, what am I
supposed to do now?

I did everything
Didn’t play with other kids
Tried my best to avoid foolishness
Worked to be someone
I wasn’t

I did my best to meet your standards
To live your dreams
To live as you wanted
Thinking of you as family
You were the only one for me

Now I don’t know
what I’m supposed to be
I don’t even recognize
me

You told me, so I did
Everything
But you’re still not satisfied
Now I don’t know why I even tried

shine coshine

ALIVE (ZINDA)

A person doesn’t live alone
They die
By living with someone
Who doesn’t care about them,
Who is with them for selfish reasons only
They get suffocated
By becoming a second choice always
By feeling that
They’ll never be someone’s priority
They suffer

How are they alive
Didn’t the loneliness kill them?
Didn’t they shatter into thousands of pieces upon being used?
Didn’t they feel like dieing
Upon becoming just a backup?

And their smile
Yes the same smile which everyone finds very lovely
The same smile no one is there to protect
How is it still there?

Who will explain people
Corpse also walk
How can someone look shattered
When they are broken from inside
Not every smile reaches the eyes
The tears in one’s eyes aren’t shown.

PS: Never make someone feel they deserve to be a second option only, not a priority
Never expect a person to come and tell you their pain easily,
if they could they wouldn’t be broken
Never ignore the signs, giving hints is the most a person suffering can do
Never let the person willing to die reach the level of attempting once
they won’t stop till they succeed.

HINDI VERSION:

Insaan akele jeeta nahi,
Marta hai
Kisi aise ke saath rehne se
Jisko uski kadar nahi,
Jo bas matlab ke liye saath hai
Ghutan hoti hai
Humesha second choice bane reh jane se
Yeh ehsaas hone se ki
Kabhi woh kisiki priority na banega
Takleef hoti hai

Na jaane kaise zinda hai woh
Kya akelapan use kha nahi gaya?
Kya istemaal hone ke baad uske hazaaron tukade nahi ho gaye?
Kya kewal ek backup banne se
Mar jaane ka man nahi kar gaya?

Aur uski hasi
Ha wahi hasi jo sabko pyaari lagti hai
Wahi hasi jiski hifaazat karne wala nahi
Kaise hai barkarar?

Kaun samajhaye logo ko
Laashein bhi chalti hai
Kaise bikhra hua dikhe woh
Jo andar se toota hai
Har hasi aankho tak nahi pahuchti
Aankho ki nami dikhayi nahi jaati.

wandering mind

Neverland

Come on take me
to your Neverland.
Show me how you
always understand.
I feel like I will
get lost in your eyes.
You can make me
feel like a butterfly.
I don’t know why
you can say goodbye.
I won’t let you
ever ever cry.
I can touch and see
your face in the sand.
I know you will
always give me a hand.

Alice Nicole

I Was Born In The Wrong Century

I speak in sonnets, while the world scrolls fast,
My soul stitched from parchment and candlelight past.
They build with steel, I dream in lace and lore,
A heart misplaced on a digital shore.

Had I lived in the fourteenth century,
I’d wear wool gowns and whisper to saints.
Illuminating prayers in candlelit scripts,
While the world outside burned with plague and prophecy.

Had I lived in the age of revolution,
Wearing laced corsets and dancing in ballroom shoes.
I’d write sonnets by gaslight and sip tea with rebels,
While steam trains howled like progress through soot-stained skies.

The twelfth century called to me with,
Its songs of chivalry and sorrow.
Had I lived in the seventeenth century,
I would write in thunder, speak like lightning.

Jazzy :P

Dear myself

Love is a beautiful feeling
A beautiful emotion
we all go through once in a life
we fall in love with other people
Not knowing where it will lead us
But in loving the other person
We forgot to love ourself
We forgot what makes us happy
We lost our true self
Only to be loved by others
In the way to please others we become harder on ourselves
We lost peace in our life
Which can only be achieved when we will start accepting us the way we are because others will never be satisfied
For once forget about so called society standards
And start loving ourselves
Look into the mirror and smile cause you are beautiful the way you are
Accept our flaws cause no one is perfect
Why to find love outside when it’s within you
So dear myself love yourself for what you are

Sabah Shaikh

Failure

”Step up in front of the class!”
”Describe yourself with one word”
”No inappropriate choices or phrases, don’t make it absurd!”

I curse myself seeing she picks me first
My classmates were now immersed, in my next move
I disapprove, of the laughing I hear from the back of the room
With my hands shaking, I utter ”Failure”

The teacher glances
But I’ve been on my best behavior

The laughing grows louder
The teacher scolds, how her, choice
Of words created a riot
And made the kids anything but quiet

”No, let me explain!”
”Please sit down, we don’t have all day.”
The cycle of failure continues to replay

AN AN

I Don’t Know Why, I Even Try

Soft-spoken
Not profane
Another argument I must refrain,

From sharing my thoughts
Calling the shots
Hoping my stance comes clear
And that my respect isn’t seen as mere

Once I step up,
To the conversation
I can already feel the agitation

”I disagree with this”
”I disagree with that”
Could you even hear each other’s perspective?
We’re getting off track!

Combative is the spirit
Being heard is the goal
If you refuse to listen, the purpose is gone as a whole

So I ask you
The one with malice in their eyes,
Why did I even try?

AN AN

Think like a proton

Inside of the atom happily there lived
Particles positive with particles negative
Two opposing kinds, yet they still got on
Until one day the protons said,
”That is not on!

Dear electrons, you’re always so negative,
you bring us down
There’s no reason to feel so blue,
no reason to frown
Your faces are always like
a wet weekend
This is where your negativity
must forever end”

”What do you mean it must end?
Do you not understand, our dear friends?
Not everything in life is to smile about
Balance is the key
and we balance each other out

It’s good to look on the bright side of life
Being positive does help in strife
But while it’s good to be optimistic
It’s also important to stay realistic”

”When you say it like that,
it all makes sense
It explains why you always
seem so tense
Your negativity is justified,
it’s your role
You keep things real
within the atom’s wall”

And that was that,
then things went back to normal
The protons and the eleçtrons’
relationship back to cordial
Respecting each other’s differences,
their unique styles
They work side by side
alone together all the while

A/n: Please note that all credit
for the image
goes to their rightful owners.

Milka

”Whispers of Eternity: A Dance of Souls”

In the moonlit sky, our love takes flight,
A symphony of hearts, shining bright.
Across the stars, our souls entwine,
A love so deep, so truly divine.

Your eyes, like diamonds, sparkle with grace,
Reflecting love’s light upon my face.
In every touch, I feel the fire ignite,
Burning desire, passion’s endless flight.

Your gentle whispers, a sweet melody,
Captivating my heart, setting it free.
In every word, a love story is told,
A tale of two hearts, forever bold.

Together we dance, in an eternal embrace,
Two souls intertwined, finding solace.
In your arms, I find my sanctuary,
A love so pure, a beautiful sanctuary.

Through the storms of life, we’ll never break,
Bound by a love that nothing can shake.
In your presence, I find strength and peace,
A love that’s timeless, it will never cease.

So here’s my heart, offered in this verse,
A love that’s boundless, an eternal curse.
Forever entwined, our spirits aligned,
In this love poem, our love defined.

Jhianne Panizales

The Garden of life

Life is a garden and aren’t we all flowers?
flowers of all colors and scent, some beautiful and some ugly yet unique in its own way.
If life is pointless, then why are we here?
Maybe we are here for the creator’s entertainment.
If that is so, I won’t force myself to like anything neither would I force myself to hate anything.

Buby Sama

Everything is temporary

Take a snapshot,
It will be the only memories left.
Gone with the wind,
Without any evidence you were there.

We had so much fun,
But i guess i should have known,
All good things come to and end,
Everything comes to a close.

Everything is just temporary,
That you should know.

a/n
Good things have an expiration date.
it hurts.

Nan ♡

Bewitching Apple Tart

A crust of gold, a lattice fine,
A tapestry of sugared twine,
Where cinnamon and nutmeg blend,
A fragrant spell, a magic to send.

The apple heart, a rosy hue,
A blush of sweetness, shining through,
Each slice a tempting, golden star,
A whispered promise, near and far.

The oven’s warmth, a gentle hand,
Transforms the dough, a fragrant land,
The scent of apples, warm and sweet,
A siren’s call, a treat to greet.

A single bite, a taste divine,
A burst of flavor, crisp and fine,
The tart’s bewitching, sweet embrace,
A moment stolen, time and space.

So let the world outside fade away,
In this warm kitchen, where we stay,
With every bite, a magic spell,
The bewitching apple tart, I tell.

Romantic Bloom

The Apple: Triolet

The apple fell with gravity
Upon the middle of the ground
It bounced up with agility
The apple fell with gravity
And without negativity
It smirked as it rolled all around
The apple fell with gravity
Upon the middle of the ground

Romantic Bloom

Others over myself

I put others before myself,
Their joys and pains, I hold at bay,
While setting my needs aside,
In selfless acts, I take the lead.

But one of my friends says they don’t need help,
And that’s not what friends do,
But I can’t help but care,
It’s just who I am, through and through.

I ignore them and continue to help people,
Because it brings me joy and ease,
While my friends may not understand,
In helping others, my soul finds peace.

stole my heart

Holidays

One and two
Me and you
Two and three
The sun, the sand, the sea
Three and four
We walk along the shore
Four and five
We swim, we dive
Five and six
We listen to our playlist mix
Six and seven
This is heaven
Seven and eight
We sunbathe
Eight and nine
We wine and dine
Nine and ten
Next year
we’ll do it
all over again

A/n: Please note that all credit
for the image
goes to their rightful owners.

Milka

Alternate Universe.

” Maybe in another universe, it would have been US . what if~...”

” AND what if this was the alternate universe your other self would have thought about. Because I knew, there would have never been an universe where I never wanted you, I knew I would have prayed in my every past lives to be with you, and I still failed in this universe and I don’t know how many other MEs lost you today, too. ”

she.saudade 10

Painful ramblings

I know I said, it was too good to be true,
But what happened when everything was so simple?
And the birds could fly around,
and the trees could whisper tiny melodies,
and the sun could gleam,
the flowers could blossom,
and the sound of waves in the distant,
was merely just a tingling dream.

What happened to those days when I would lay on the grass?
A book in my hand, soaking up the sunshine magic.
What happened when life was stress free,
and the future inevitability was so far out of reach.

Nan ♡

Dear Mr Scammer

Dear Mr Scammer,

Why you gotta be so fake?
Why you not a real person?
Why you wriggle like a snake?
Why you gotta take the words I write
And turn them into cash?
Why a lotta folks I know would like to kick you in your—

Ash and charcoal cinders
Mark and make the page with pitch,
But you hide behind the DMs
Like a sneaky little snitch.
Which is really most annoying,
What is ‘real’ breaks at the seams.
Why you gotta be decoying?
Why you toying with my dreams?

Why you gotta make up stories
‘Bout the contacts that you know?
Why you trawling categories
Like a keyword-trolling ho?
If you wanna make up fiction
Write some books or pen some verse,
Why you gotta bring such friction
Every time that you converse?

Lastly Mr Scammer
There’s one thing I’d like to know
When you look into the mirror,
When you’re really all alone:
Does this outreaching of pretense
Make you feel like a success?
Piggybacking at the expense
Of the creative process?

Do you ever stare and wonder,
Do you ever deconstruct,
Why so many writers send you
Words that rhyme with ‘debt’ and ‘ducked’?
Cos while you’re busy scamming
We hack keys that you forsook,
Factor that into your spamming,

Yours sincerely,
Neobook

Secret Geek

Hard To Unlove You

When I take a step ahead,
you force me to retreat two steps back.
Just as I sense us getting close,
you prove me wrong each time.
However, like a fool, I fall for your crafted illusion every time.

The words, like a lump in my throat, cling.
When I muster courage at last,
you make me bite my tongue and regret everything.
Unsaid words consume my mind,
eat me alive, roam freely, haunting the night.

As I attempt to crawl back from the edge,
you plunge me back deeper into the abyss.
To the world’s end, you drag me,
refusing to release me from your claws.
You’re the tunnel that surrounds me, making me devoid of light,
engulfing me in your shadow,
making me suffocated is all you do,
yet I still can’t unlove you.

I fear what I may become,
I fear I’ll never be enough.
And I’m afraid I love you so deeply,
so your pain becomes mine, it’s such a pity.
I know it’s wrong to feel hurt over your misery,
it’s your life, you choose this path of misery,
So don’t pull me along in your despair.
It’s wrong, you know, yet you still do.
I want to hate you,
but I still can’t unlove you.

I’m tracing your footsteps,
your shadow cast over me,
anxiously fearing someday I’ll become the one I hate.
So, I want to escape
from your shadow and your name.
But unfortunately, we’re bound by the same fate,
the same thread tied around our necks.
I can only run but can’t hide away
from the fate and the shadow that we share.

P.S. I think the picture is the most accurate representation for this poem...

shine coshine

When Everyone And No One’s Watching

When you look in my eyes and tell me I’m beautiful.
Will you do the same in front of your friends at all costs?

Will I still be the one you want when the world is watching?
Will you still hold me when your ex’s parents walk in?

Tell me I’m in all your dreams,
Tell me I’m the reason you breathe.

Will you do it in front of everyone and when there’s no one?

I think about it too often.
But will I be the one when everyone and no one is watching?

Will I still be your prize when I’m close to fifty nine?
Will you tell your friends that I’m your life?

Will I be enough for you, with the blinds closed and in front of judging eyes?
In front of strangers, will you say that you never need to see the northern lights because you are holding the sight?

Will I be enough for you when everyone and no one is watching?

When your hurt, will you call on my name on the edge of time?
Will you do the same when your family stay the night?

Will I be enough for you when everyone and no one is watching?

SzS 12

Twisted Fantasy

Don’t look at me,
Don’t stare,
Those glares,
And those sneers,
Your whispers,
Your words,
Cutting through me.

The way you look at me,
The way you’re whispering,
The way you’re giggling,
I know nothing’s real,
Just my twisted fantasy.

And I know no one’s staring,
No one’s glaring,
And those sneers,
Those whispers,
Those words,
Aren’t meant for me,
But I can’t shake this feeling,
I can’t stop my trembling,
And I start stammering.

My mind goes blank,
I forget walking,
Forget talking,
And I gasp for air,
Because I forget to breathe.
No, I can’t shake this feeling,
And I can’t stop my trembling.

But I know, I know,
Those stares,
Those glares,
Those sneers,
Those whispers,
Those words,
Are just my twisted fantasy.
Yet no, I can’t shake this feeling,
It holds me in its grip, you see,
This twisted fantasy,
My anxiety.

Your face,
Your smile,
Your honey-dripping voice,
I know they’re all my imagination,
Because I don’t deserve
Any of those compliments.

You tell me,
I am everything
You ever wished for
But couldn’t get.
I want to believe,
Believe all those
Lies.

I don’t want to be this way,
I just want to feel okay.
I don’t know what I should say
Or do,
I don’t want to loathe
Myself,
And I just want to run away
From all the pain,
Fears,
Tears,
Regrets,
Mistakes.
I want to disappear
And never feel this way.

My insecurity,
My anxiety,
Won’t let me breathe,
Won’t let me feel okay,
Won’t let me believe
Those lies,
Or truths?

#poetrycontestbyI.B

shine coshine

Fragments Of My Childhood

The fragrance of my childhood
Hides in the folds of your embrace.
You were warm, like the sun’s rays,
Whenever I needed you, you were there.
I thought our relationship would always stay that way.

I loved you so much, and I expected you to do the same,
But with time, our relationship got tainted,
And our love for each other slowly faded.
With passing years, the distance grew between us.

It’s not like I don’t love you anymore,
I still do as much as before,
And I know you love me too,
But it does not feel the same anymore.

You are here, but when I look for you,
I just cannot find you anywhere.
Even though the world left me behind,
I hoped you would be with me through time.

In the fragments of my childhood,
All the love you gave me, I still remember,
But all the times you looked at me with contempt, I still remember.
My love for you is still there,
Your love for me is still here.

But our relationship is not like before,
Even though we are so close by,
It feels like we are countries apart.
I can’t feel your warmth anymore,
All the good memories of you are here,
You too are here, but it’s not like before.

In the fragments of my childhood,
All the love you gave me, I still remember,
In those fragments, I remember how
You used to smile and look at me with love.
In your embrace, I felt all the warmth.
You were there for me whenever I cried,
And when I needed you, you appeared right before my eyes.

But now that I am older, things have changed.
As I look at you, I don’t feel the same,
You’re still as before, but we are not anymore.
People say, with time, relationships change, and I guess that’s true.
What we have now is hard to believe, describe.

In the fragments of my childhood,
All the love you gave me, I still remember,
How you looked at me lovingly, I still reminisce and smile.
But I still remember how you gazed at me as if I were something filthy.

In those fragments of my childhood,
I still remember that young child who used to be happy.
And loved their mother dearly; they still do,
But it’s not the same anymore.
It’s all just confined to those fragments,
And those fragments are slowly fading away,
Like those dreams that fade over time.

In the fragments of my childhood,
All the love you gave me, I still remember,
All the times you smiled at me lovingly, I still remember.
But just like a dream, it doesn’t feel real anymore.

shine coshine

Autism

I wish I could say how it really felt,
To be trapped in a mind which I can’t help.
It changes daily and I can’t be free,
To see your emotion and how much you mean to me.

I know I’m different but it’s not okay,
I’m bound to be bullied and I have no say.
I made a few mistakes and I regret it nightly,
But I still tell those haters to come and fight me.

I can’t see what you see, you should be proud,
For me it’s either too bright, too loud, or two’s a crowd.
It hurts the brain so I keep eyes shut,
Dreaming of escape and shouting out ‘fuck.’

You scream and shout but I don’t understand,
I just need some help and to hold his hand.
It makes me a mess for people approaching me with caution,
Trying to mask the heat of exhaustion.

Music is an escape for all that’s unworthy,
No one to talk, but that’s good for me.
I relish to be alone so I don’t hurt others,
Just sitting in a book or hiding under covers.

I’m always ashamed at what I’ve become,
Though others protest it could be fun.
We laugh and play at the irony of it all,
Making fun of being too tall.

Please just listen for you’re all I know,
I dream too much for reality to flow.
But although I’m trapped in a forever prison,
I’m still here and I have Autism.

Charlie !

Excuses

Don’t make excuses,
when you’ve already made up your mind.
don’t make them , don’t waste my time.
Say what you want to me , clear and raw- explain what is, that you find flawed.

Nan ♡

I Fear

There were many things I wanted to do,
Many things I wanted to say to you.
There were many memories I wanted to make,
Not knowing that would be my last memory of you.

I have always thought of all the ’what ifs,’
I have always thought of all the possibilities.
I am not ready to accept it,
No, I am not ready to let you go,
I am still holding on to your memories.

I am still here, waiting for you in the rain,
It’s the same summer you disliked, again.
I am the same age as you when you said goodbye,
I kept waiting for you but you never came back,
I kept growing older, but you’re still the same boy.

It pains me to think of your smiling face,
When I know that smile was just a facade.
You used to cover up your scars that no one knew,
For now I know how much you must have wept in the dark, alone.

All the things I said that day, you heard,
Not knowing how much you endured ’cause of me, you mourned.
You were always there for me,
While I couldn’t be there for you when you needed it the most.
You were alone in the rain, and I couldn’t take your pain.

If only I could turn back time,
If only I could hold you one last time,
If only I could bid you one last goodbye,
If only I could tell you all the things I never told you,
If only I hadn’t said all the things I did,
If only I could erase everything.
If only…

You left me alone with nothing but regrets,
I am here crying alone, but my eyes have no tears left.
Your memories are slowly fading away,
And I fear I am going to forget you someday.

I fear I will move on and be happy one day,
While you never got a chance to live through that day.
I am the reason for all your pain.
But I am still alive, and you are gone.

I fear I won’t remember your face someday.
I fear I will get older than you someday.
While you will be the same as when you left.
And I fear my heart will heal someday.
I fear I don’t deserve any of it.

shine coshine

Aw, naw!

There once was a kitten
Whose favourite toy was a mitten
She’d scratch it, she’d bite it
She would hide inside it
Until one day she found out
she was too big to fit in

A/n: The image used is AI generated
using Night Cafe.

Milka

In love ..

Tumhara ho jaana bhi to ek khwaab sa h ,
Na pad saku kabhi uss kitaab sa h.

Tum keemti ho mere liye maanti hu,
Par tumhara tareeka yun itarane ka bhi to nwaab sa h .

Maine socha nhi tha ki kabhi hoga aisa bhi kuchh tumse ishq ho jaana bhi ek ittefaq sa h..

_______________________

I thought i should even add a english version but the vibe changed in that , so i just posted hindi one.

Preet ......

Our Love Will Find A Way

दुनिया के नजरो से छुपकर ,
मेरी नजरे तुमसे मिलती हैं ।
ये स्वर्ग की रेशिमागाठें हैं,
इन्हें अलग कर पाना नामुंकिन हैं ।।

In a sea of strangers, watching the crowd,
My gaze forever seeking yours, a beacon proud.
Concealed from the world’s prying eyes,
Our souls meet, and our hearts entwine.

I’ll defy the notion of ”probably in other life”
And claim that our love is worth the strife.
Just say you love me, and none shall dare
To sever our bond, so strong and rare.

Let us prove to the world
the power of our flame,
That our love is eternal,
and our bond shall remain.

Together, we willl conquer
Every single test,
And emerge victorious,
with love as our quest.

In life’s fiery, where trials abound,
Distance becomes the fuel
that fuels our love profound.
As we face every hardship,
our bond will only grow,
And our love will emerge stronger,
like a phoenix from the woe.

In this chaotic world,
we’ll find our peaceful nest,
Where our love is the anchor
that holds us fast.

The only things that matter are
your love, for me,
And my love for you – a bond
that sets us free.

Yours Lovingly!
Always, Forever, Together

to the special person - I know u aren’t on neobook, but hey future wife, u can always read these later..

A/n :- i guess while leaving sneha didi transefered all her skills to me💀💀 only the idea of using the word ’beacon’ was taken from chat gpt, everything else is original. Even idk how I got this vocabulary.

Yours, Lovingly!

Would you be scared?

Would you be scared?
If you saw me jump off a bridge.
Would you run and try to save me or stand there and watch?
Would you be scared?
If you saw me drawing red lines on myself with a knife.
Would you hide and watch or tell me to stop?
Would you be scared?
If you saw a group of guys trying to take advantage of me.
Would you stand there and watch or try to tell them to stop?
Would you be scared?
If you saw me trying to hang myself.
Would you just peek through the door and watch me suffocate or save my life?
Would you be scared?
If you found me dead in the woods.
Would you walk away from my body or tell people you found me?
No sorry, The real question is,
Would you save me?

You tell me you love me yet you can’t answer me.

Would you save my life?
If you saw a group of guys beating me up
Would you run up and tell them to stop or stand there in watch?
Would you call me a punk?
If I told you these girls took advantage of me.
Would I still be your #1?
Would you be there for me?
If you saw me crying alone?

Yes.

There’s a difference between you and me.
I never told you ”I loved you” yet I still try to show it.
But you, you just say that you love me. Yet you never show it.

Nelly Louis

Daffodils and hyacinths

I hold a single daffodil
It’s bright yellow petals
The sun covered in clouds
Letting the flower gloom
The first light of the spring
The crisp air, the cold mornings
everything winter leaves behind
Warmth and light I welcome to my heart
As more daffodils grow
so my faith for a tomorrow
In which I don’t reap purple hyacinths

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A/n, I started researching florography and I love it so much.
My name i use online iki kamilica
Iki my nickname and kamilica means chamomile on Serbian, I choosed this name as a gamer tag years ago and it just stuck with me. (I perhaps loved camomile tea a bit to much but I don’t regret it a bit)
And in florography, the language of flowers, it symbolizes joy, positivity, happiness, rest, peace etc. And in some cultures it’s even a token of good luck.
So i accidentally choosed a name for myself that symbolizes everything I want my life to be, what’s kinda ironic and poetic.
If anyone’s interested in explaining this short poem using the two flowers.
Daffodils are a symbol of spring, new beginnings and rebirth.
And hyacinths especially purple ones stand for regret.

I apologize if my next peoms only include flowers and there meanings but as a comment pointed out on my last post, I found something that awokes spring in me. Something that makes me feel inspired and I’m absolutely including flowers into my novel too.
And perhaps annoy every person I know because I can’t be nonchalant about it.

iki

तुम साथ हो

ये ख़्वाबों का अंबर,
ख़ुशियों का समुंदर ,
बहते हम रहें चाहतों के अंदर |

आ गए हम कहाँ ,
ऐ मेरे साजना,
तुम जो मिले,
सारे उलझन सुलझने लगे,
इश्क़ में बेहके पहले से ही ,
पर अब पिघलने लगे |

पल भर ठहर जाओ ,
दिल ये संभल जाए,
कैसे तुम्हें रोका करूँ,
आँखों में तुम को भरूं,
छा रहा ये कैसा नशा,
तेरे सिवा और कोई न भाता |

तुम से ही दिन होता है,
बातों में बातें तेरी,
रातें-सौग़ातें तेरी,
तेरे बाहों में बसा मेरा संसार,
साथ हो जो हर पल का,
दुनिया में न लगे कुछ कम सा,
बेहोशी में भी खुशी है,
अगर तुम साथ हो |

Translating this is like really difficult cause you can’t really bring the same feel but anyways :D :

This amber of dreams,
and sea of happiness,
We keep flowing in our desires.

Where have we come?
O my beloved,
When I got you,
all the problems started getting resolved,
We’re already madly in love,
But now we’re melting.

Please pause for a moment,
Let this heart calm down,
but how can I stop you,
Let me fill my eyes with you,
What kind of intoxication is this,
that I don’t like anyone else except you.

My day is complete only with you,
Your words are in my words,
My nights are your gifts,
My world resides in your arms,
your company for every moment,
the world is complete,
There is happiness even in unconsciousness,
if you are with me.

” 𝒎𝒖𝒋𝒉𝒆 𝒃𝒉𝒊 𝒕𝒐𝒉 𝒌𝒂𝒓𝒏𝒆 𝒉𝒂𝒊 𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒔𝒂𝒂𝒕𝒉 𝒑𝒚𝒂𝒂𝒓 𝒌𝒂 𝒊𝒛𝒉𝒂𝒂𝒓 .
𝒎𝒖𝒋𝒉𝒆 𝒃𝒉𝒊 𝒕𝒐𝒉 𝒌𝒂𝒓𝒏𝒆 𝒉𝒂𝒊 𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒔𝒂𝒂𝒕𝒉 𝒘𝒐𝒉 𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒌𝒆 𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒎𝒊𝒔𝒆𝒔. ”

PS: Inspired by bollywood songs :D

Singing off : साथी , Innov
( Picture from pinterest)

Innov

Through and through

People think him distant
People think him aloof
The truth is he’s just different
He’s just different and that’s the truth

Thankfully, he has a sister
The sister who’s bulletproof
She takes all the bullets (fired by the bullies)
She’s a hero through and through

A/n: Please note that all credit
for the image
goes to their rightful owner.

Milka

Gentle Ache

Take a stroll along the path, 
Breathe it in,
before it slips past.

All I ever wanted,
all I ever dreamed, 
Tucked in between the rain-soaked seams.

Raindrops fall like memories from above, 
Each one a piece of the life I dreamed of. 
Tender and fleeting,
fragile and true,  

The kind of love I hoped for, 
The kind of love I found in you.

Nan ♡

Back to the future

Let’s go back to the future
For we only live twice
We’ll be alone together
It’s a true myth
It’s awfully nice

A/n: Please note that all credit
for the image
goes to their rightful owners.

Milka